went out with TVPS teachers on Saturday... then i realised... no matter how much better it gets in CHS... i'll still miss TVPS.
tian said its good that i still hang out with them... yeah... but during conversations... i'll still feel out of place.
there are matters that i'm not in the position to ask... or to know... my voice becomes smaller... my presence does not matter... i'm there but i'm always tired... my problems do not even seem like problems...
its a not-here-nor-there lifestyle again...
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i actually told QT and a new teacher (AN) what happened! i know. i totally SHOCKED them... AN said she wants to try too... no no... don't even THINK about it... its too dangerous...
and to end all of it, i deleted... while reading 《我是女王》。 but sadly... heaven is always joking with me... things always happen when one thinks its over... always unpredictable. then again... i'll put an end to it, again.
ok... hasnt been blogging... thats mostly because im slacking and been pissing off by somebody...
hrmm... maybe i should add an "S" behind that "somebody"... ROAR!
a man, age 24... acting like a kid! please... you are 24 and you have been through NS... and you are still complaining like a child to the teacher "TEACHER! HE DOESNT WANT TO PLAY WITH ME!"
sobs... well... too bad! if people dont want to play with you, then go find somebody who does!
if you are such a good buddy of his, then settle him! why do you have to complain to me!?
and please... guys...
NOBODY!
NOBODY decides WHEN i am getting a boyfriend... WHO i am getting as MY boyfriend... or WHAT KIND of boyfriend i get...
its all NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS! keep your comment/s to yourself... anyway... you commented cause you are selfish... not for the sake of me...
GROW UP! GET A LIFE!
i cant help it if you feel EMPTY after your break-up with your gf... especially it over a long period of time! you are WASTING MY TIME!
if my good intentions are MISTAKEN by you (apparently not, i've been making it CRYSTAL CLEAR that it IMPOSSIBLE between us YEARS AGO)... then, im ignoring you.
and your uber good buddy who is so very sure that you two will die for each other... go to each other! dont come and complain to me! if you guys are really so good!? why are you 2 fussing over such a small matter!?
BE A MAN!
25 years of age... married, divorcing and have a child... and you said whatever you said is just being selfish... oh please... at this age and with such experience... dont tell me you cant be responsible for your own words!? if you dont care, why sms and call? i practice what i preach... when i say im adopting this "i dont want to know and i dont want to care" policy, i mean it. and i hope you mean what you said too... be a good role model for him.
and you two should really be THANKFUL that you have at least ONE sane and sensible buddy in your group! it must have been hard on you... and you were the first to piss me off! haha! ironic... sorry about that...
so Dears... this is why i have been so restless and didnt feel like blogging... i really need to get to Taiwan and get lost over there...
