you.can.lock.yourself.up.but.please unframe me

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

I had a very very long chat with my colleague just now...

she is good de! don't doubt her.
she called from 8PM and put down the phone at about 9.30PM...

why? what's so serious or urgent?

ME!

yesh~ its me~
she thought i took MC today again...
so she called to ask how i am...
but i took mc last thursday, not today...

its ok...
she is actually 44 this year...
but she don't look like it at all!
i think for her, its really young at heart.
and also pure at heart.
she's a buddhist, and she has a heart as big as the ocean...
she told me about herself, how she tided over...
how many of the teachers fought to 站稳脚步 here...
many many many stuffs...

i know...
i am thankful.
不管路途多崎岖，多遥远，我从来没有后悔过走这条路。
i have never regretted taking this path.

thanks a lot, Ong Hong...
even though you may not (or definitely not) see this post.
but really, thanks a lot.

and to my Dears:

Melty -
i know you feel lost,
you don't know what to do,
and we don't know how to help either,
but if you think we can help,
just tell us. or me.

Meh -
Meh must make Grand Blog Comeback ASAP ah!
fuxiaozhang is looking forward to it!

XinMei -
aiyo... you and your "Q XinMei is falling down" disease ah...
must get it cure ASAP hoh...
if not how to train Frisbee!?

Xingyi -
your BIG DAY is very near!
FIGHTING!

Alice -
dotter must have regular sleeping habits,
and also regular eating habits,
so that you'll not feel so tired...

我很快就回来~* 10:32:00 PM

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Monday, April 28, 2008

我真是快恢复的B型啊！
昨天还精神不稳定……
今天……就好多了。

there's accomplishments today!
i marked! quite a lot...
met up with Xmei, my dear grand-dotter~
bought BB cream to pacify my mother... ya... quarreled with her yesterday...
and went running!

i've been trying very hard to regulate my life...
its really difficult...
my Dears know me...
i don't have much habit...
so trying to keep a habit is not an easy task for me...

we'll see how it goes then~

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Clem说：就是美的东西才来得快，去得也快。

对啊……
我五月天的high已经快要殆尽了……

回忆越美越可怕
越挣扎眼泪越是要落下

对啊……
多甜……多美……多可怕……

多少年前……我已经学会了不后悔……
多少年前……我比别人先学会拒绝……
多少年前……我已经铁石了我心肠……

但现在想起……讲起……嘴角还是会上扬……

以我为主的戏里……
印证不断地重复……
重复不断的印证……

“想要的永远得不到，不想要的往往会发生”

但我还是相信要勇敢去爱……
因为……

原来世上真的有圣诞老人
会把爱的奇迹给勇敢的人

因为……

下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都是为你

因为……

只因我为爱而生
只因为我为爱而生

因为……

只要你爱我一切都没问题
只要你爱我一切都没问题

我……是个极端的家伙……
我……是个狂妄的家伙……
我……是个倔强的家伙……
我……是个坚强的家伙……
我……是个矛盾的家伙……

我是脆弱的……

可是我相信……

当我和世界不一样
那就让我不一样

如果……
全世界都否定我……
只要一个人给我赞同……
我就有坚持下去的力量……

我……就是如此固执……如此倔强……如此狂妄……

但是……
我的Dears啊……
你们又怎么会让全世界否定我呢？

你们……总是如此的保护我……
要是有一天……
这层保护膜慢慢脱落……
要是有一天……
要我用自己的免疫力生存下去……
要是有这么的一天……

你们会让这一天来临吗？
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我期待……
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5月17。

我很快就回来~* 11:36:00 PM

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Sunday, April 27, 2008

the place that i'm in now...
is a place that will either...

make me...
or...
break me...

and i am quite sure that i am breaking apart already...

好想像Mic一样，
有条件和勇气去递上辞呈。

当时看到Mic说想辞掉工作去做个waitress，
自己完全吓了一跳！
读了4年的书，就为了做个WAITRESS!?

现在想想，
为什么不行？
至少工作量和工钱成正比啊！

i'm procrastinating...
i don't feel like marking...
i feel sick of books...
i missed my old life as a student...
and i can't grow out of it.

i don't know why a BT like me is involved in so many things...

i'm afraid i'll become like LM...
maybe i should really go to a psychiatrist...
maybe i should go for a thorough checkup...
or maybe i am already insane but i have no idea about it...

there are things...
that i have to leave it in my heart and not tell anybody...
cause it will really freak EVERYBODY out...
and i mean it...

i feel so tired...
i kind of wish that i fail my confirmation and MOE will send me back to NIE for another TP.
but Kai and Janet said if i can pass my TP, its already CONFIRMED!
damn... of so many places... HERE! WHY!?
前世造的孽吗？
前世我负了谁了我！？
还是我害了谁了？
难道我杀人放火？
那怎么能让我这辈子投胎做人呢？

我又在怨天尤人了，
又在自怨自艾了。
这些坏习惯什么时候才会改啊！？

前途无亮啊!
我看不到光明。
我的人生越来越黯淡了。
成天想着工作，连写作的时间都没有了。
我那个累……
为什么Matt有时间给人补习？
有时间去茶馆？
而我呢？
连改书的时间都没有！
我的人生到底怎么了？
怎么会那么糟！？

WT说得对，
我人品有问题！
我头脑有问题！
我心智有问题！
我身体有问题！
我需要看医生！
而且是心理医生！
谁给我介绍介绍，好不？
在我做出傻事之前。

我很快就回来~* 10:01:00 PM

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OMFG!

opps...

it was too great... i have to use this kind of language to expression myself...

the concert started at 8.15PM and ended at 11.30PM with i don't know if its called an encore..

it started with a short clip, in year 2057 (ok, i cant remember numbers well, so i think its 2057...) there's a kind of disease call "Black Eye Disease", no, not the kena punch in the eye kind of disease... if you dio then your whole eye ball will become black, slowly spreads to your whole body and then you'll turn to dust.

the plot, the storyline, the costume, machiam some RE movie! i like~

the start of the concert wasn't very impressive... (Gackt had HORSES!)
there was 1 soldier that dropped down from the top of the building and started "shooting", in the clip, they are trying to eliminate the survivers... killed a young girl in the clip, then Ashin was furious and his eye balls turned black and blew up everything else...

stood up during the first song...
i think the first song was 抓狂.
Uncle Matt and Ellen really have this 矜持 you know!
they sat down and wave their light sticks when i was headbanging and jumping up and down...
ohya!
SORRY that i spoilt TWO battery operated light sticks...
sorry Uncle Matt that i stepped on your foot several times, which caused you to step on some don't know who's foot.
Singapore is actually their first stop for their Down To Earth World Tour 2008.
the stadium was FULL!
all the light sticks~ BEAUTIFUL!
i'm not the kind of die-hard Mayday fan...
its the atmosphere, the high-ness that i wanted from the concert~
rock and rock and more rock music!
but sadly...
i couldn't take my mind off my work and something else...
so... i yawned at some HIGH points...
opps! ok lah... i was heart, mind, soul and physically tired...

那些歌词……好些我没听过的歌……
印象好深刻……

[一千个世纪]

当时地球还年轻
我们诞生荒凉大海里
演化到了寒武纪
我们长出脊椎和勇气
某天我们开始踩出脚印
学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心
啊啊我要和你
一起走过一千个世纪
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都为你

当时你我都野性
我们学会用火和穴居
后来帝国正崛起
我们战乱之中更相依
某天我们突然回忆过去
我们只是两段平凡基因
却爱的很美丽
啊啊我要和你
一起走过一千个世纪
下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都是为你

啊啊我要和你
一起活过一千个世纪
每次诞生都只有一个意义
就是和你在一起

在一起

直到文明又毁灭
一千世纪后的第一天
伊甸园里肩并肩
我们笑看太阳也熄灭

My Dears, especially those who are miserably in love to the state that you have almost forgotten your friends...
don't you feel that this sums up the whole story of you and him/her?

there's many more songs...
i'll get from Ellen to burn... hohoho!
and KTV at her house!

整场演唱会……是感动的，是震撼的，是感叹的！
我是个很language的人，
每一首歌的歌词都感动了我，
我也很music，
石头、怪兽的吉他，玛莎的贝斯，阿信的嗓音，还有我最喜欢，最龟毛的冠佑的鼓声，震动了场地，震撼了我……
solo solo solo!

知足，我知道。
不知从几何时，我已经完全了解什么是“知足”了。
站在高高的座位上，5个是那么的小，手伸出来了，可是我又握不到。
没关系，至少那一刻，我见证到了。
至少那一刻，我活着，呼吸着，看着听着他们的演唱会。
我就满足了。

突然想告诉我的Dears们，尤其是那些比我小的Dears们……

我们这些人类啊！
经过那么长的时间进化……
我们长出脊椎和勇气
某天我们开始踩出脚印
学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心

是为了什么呢？
是为了爱啊！
为了追求自己爱的东西，
自己爱的人！
只因我为爱而生！
不要再胆怯了！
世上容不下胆怯的人啊！

哇！我怎么讲得出那么有人性的话啊！

到最后，演唱会似有若无的Encore又high high的结束了。
Matt已经CMI了，我和Ellen还在Stadium里买tour goods。
嗬嗬！Dears们17日那天就会看到我买的衣服咯！

这次的演唱会是个美好的开始，所以散场后没有什么空虚的感觉。
不像上次Beyond最后一场，空虚到爆！
我跟Ellen说，要使每个礼拜都去看一场rock/五月天concert，那一个月一定瘦5KG! Ellen点点头，说钱包也会瘦啊……对哦！

本来想去新海山碰碰运气的，可是Matt不会去，
也累到不能送我们回家了，就去了AMK公园的麦记。
差不多12点到那里吧……
我跟Ellen聊到差不多3点才回家哦！

咩哈哈哈哈！
各位小孩，羡慕吧？
这种自由是你们等个十年八年才会有的！
你Ahma我小四就自己拿钥匙，中一就在死党家过夜咯！

我的Dears，我爱你们啊！
胆怯的混球们都滚一边去吧！
不要来骚扰我跟我的Dears!

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random:

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Friday @ Kyonichi with QL and Mic~
the lights are actually reflections...

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my latest feitish... voodoo rabbit!

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Saturday morning in SCHOOL!
had Mc breakfast and found the freshmilk packaging rather cute...

end~

我很快就回来~* 10:21:00 AM

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

刚才那个PO是在学校职员室里打的，
我现在还在这里。

就……心有旁骛吧。

死clem，明知道我无聊还出去不陪我。
不过也算了，有他在我的书真的不用改了。

刚才用我和clem的名字和八字算了算前世今生，
我们俩啊……
什么都不是，萍水相逢，就跟我吵嘴一定输我的那个。
今世也是如此啊！
只是感情深了点。
不错，有进展~嗬嗬！
clem，你认命吧！咩哈哈哈哈！

那个小混球，
前天跟我哈啦了几句，太阳打北边出来了！？
就知道没好事。
原来要我帮他下歌。
昨晚帮他下到了，连个谢谢都没说。混球！

今晚要跟ELLEN和Mat去看五月天演唱会！
很兴奋啊！
可是身心好累啊！

为什么我不在TVPS?
或者是JSPS?

怨天尤人-ing...
自怨自艾-ing...
烦！

讲真的，
我对5月17不是很期待。
Dears都来了，可是没什么时间陪你们。
谢幕后我还要陪小瓜回学校的。
咋办？

Dears,我爱你们！
-切腹自刭-

我很快就回来~* 2:33:00 PM

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heh~
finally... i can update my blog...
i couldn't do an update due to the previous post of MTF promotion.
then i asked Idiot WT for suggestion.
she said i can put it in the template,
i said i've thought of it, not feasible, the right side of my blog is just too small.
then Idiot WT suggested to make it into a banner.
i've thought of that too~
heh heh~ are you thinking what i'm thinking?

OF CAUSE ASK WT DO LAH!

then Idiot WT told me to make it using LOW CLAK PAINT programme, just like... MY SON!

dotz...

and of why IDIOT WT is called IDIOT WT, i promised her not to say or blog about it...
so... heh~

thats when the jokes came out...
we've been tok-koking for quite some time last night!
machiam we went back to the days when we were in KOREA!
hahahaha!

Mimiko said it's good to chat with me on phone during the night...
she'll have very quality slumber, cause she's exhausted from all the laughter...

argh!
i can't wait for the TAIWAN trip!
i can't wait for the KOREA trip!
roar!

met up with Mic and QL to pay hotel fees~
then we went to the long awaited Kyonichi to have ramen...
yes... Jap food... AGAIN!
i know i know...
i'm getting a little sick of Jap food myself...
but friends mah~
with friends around...
even the worst food will taste good!
as usual, we continue to tok-koking...

we were so very bery sick of our job...
we were like...
"ya! 其实进去蹲也不错！"
for those who are not Chinese inclined, it means going to jail is not a bad idea...
we are fed,
we don't have to worry about what to wear,
we don't have to worry about the bond,
we don't have to worry about "climbing",
we don't have to worry about students grades or bonuses,
we don't have Ps, VPs or HODs chasing after us...
and... we don't have to write EPMS!

hohoho~
in exchange of freedom...
maybe its worth it...

haha~ what are we thinking!?

and i think i can confirm that Mic's taking the chance.

if you ask me if i'm ok,
i can frankly tell you...
NO.
y?
cause CHS is really pushing me off the cliff.

and ohya!
guess who i saw online yesternight!?
DUPER TIAN!
KALAVULEH!
i was so SHOCKED!
then i worry for my Dears' safety and changed my nick to "OMFG! SISTERS TAKE COVER!"
hohoho!
then when she went offline...
i changed to "Sisters, its safe now."

see! i so good! protect you all leh~
-hugs-
then Idiot WT kept LOL-ing when i told her that...
and she went to dig up her blogs...
and we LOL all over again...
haiz...
without her ah...
our life no source of entertainment leh!

last night,
was suppose to go watch movie with Mimiko,
which made her quarreled with her mum.

Mimiko, nehmind lah~
midnight shows only mah~
we'll wait till you get better~
its only 20+ more days to go~
CHEERIOS!
when you are really well and kicking,
i treat you kinder surprise ok!
-hugs-

我很快就回来~* 11:21:00 AM

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

ATTENTION TO ALL MY DEARS

WHO LOVE ME SO DEAR~

your FuXiaoZhang / AhMa / LaoGong / Amblur / Dearie Ambery etc etc 's band boys are putting up a performance very very soon! We'll be "guest star" performing with the secondary school side~

MUSIC TAKES FLIGHT

ORDERS CLOSED

Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date: 17th May 2008
Day: Saturday
Time: 7.30PM
Look out for: AMBER! ME! I! MYSELF! and my CUTE BOYS!
Tix selling at 10SGD each! free sitting!

my Dears~ its going to be good!
come down and see ME! and my boys~ hohoho!

Coming list: Melt, FangFang, WT, XMei, Cher, Ryn, Ah Q & BF, Mic, Mimiko, QL

-LOVE ALL OF U!-

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR "YESH YESH YESH! I WANT TO GO!"

according to my student, he only has limited tix, so i think i have to stop at 10+1.
but if some of you Dears are still interested to come, feel free to ask, i'll see what i can do~

-HUGS-

so for those who's names are here, see you Dears on 17th May, Saturday!

我很快就回来~* 10:05:00 PM

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MUAHAHAHAHA!

today tired till drop dead also must BLOG!

my Dears...

L@@K!

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FOUR BOXES AND 6 (1 eaten) SINGLES OF KINDER SURPRISE!

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*TOUCHED*
i told Dear Ellen that i like onyx cause my dear Gackt wears them...
and L@@K!
this is a pair of onyx earrings!
she got herself one pair too!
*爱死你了*
eh... not cheap leh!

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my Dears...
today... i can confirm + chop i will dio pok very soon...
cause ah...
during my afternoon lessons with my smarty class...
a parent was standing outside...
my kids were so HIGH after a workbook activity...
they were in a mess...
then... the parent shook her head...
haiz...
my other class is still a lot cuter...

Ellen ah...
so paisay leh... >.<
ok lah ok lah...
next time no need you to 破费 liao~
cause i am leaving soon le mah~
and i will be happier too!
we can go lim teh together~
we can go shopping together~
we can suan Matt like we did today together~
we can bear sour plum's complains together!
next next year bah... i think...
next year's June to settle transfer and go over during the start of next next year.
then i will have time to give tuition and further my studies too!
and we can go to concerts and operas too!
weeeh!
ok ok! BRIGHT SIDE!
must think on the BRIGHT SIDE!

so no matter if the P or the VP or my RO or HODs are after me...
i have to think on the BRIGHT SIDE!
and next time... its my turn to spend ok!
hohoho!
-hugs-

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原来，我还是蛮拘谨的。
总是防着别人……
但是，我又有什么资格被人骗呢？
可怜的小破孩，还真的是自己回家的。

我很快就回来~* 9:36:00 PM

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Monday, April 21, 2008

hohoho!

clem ah...
你回来的真是时候！

我看现在啊……
在这世界上，最了解我的男人就是你了吧……（对，我老豆不了解我！完全不了解！）

刚才跟Clem通电话，
Clem问我什么时候迷上这种东西（kinders）的……
我说我本来就爱吃巧克力啊！
也本来就喜欢figurings啊！
Clem说原来他以为自己很了解我的……
没有啦！
你这样讲我很难过耶！
这些都只是些小事，这么在乎干嘛呢？
听你讲这些，
我头脑一直在转……
Clem啊，
到现在为止，你是影响我最大，最深的男人了……
自豪吧？荣幸吧？

Clem跟我其他的好兄弟不一样。
在那一次“教训”候，他很乖哦！
有很多事可以跟他说，
可以很直接，不留情面，
可以大女人，可以小女孩，
可以古古怪怪，可以大大咧咧！
不需要觉得自己是受保护动物。
他可以给我无限量的自由，
我们互不相欠，不需要对对方太好，也不太坏。
就是刚刚好，不需要避谈任何东西，也不需要担心谁过界。

我啊，身边真的不缺男人。
好兄弟一大把，多数都是受过“教训”的。
更不缺朋友，身边姐妹多的是！
疼我的人嘛，也不少啊！
兄弟姐妹家人都很疼我啊！
同事也对我很好！
可是有些事是需要双性来给意见的。
姐妹当然什么nonsense都可以说，
但是到了兄弟……就没几个能说的了。
有的兄弟就会听我说，什么都不说；
有的兄弟应该听我说，但是到最后变成我听他说。
有的是我不想跟他说……
Clem刚开始听的时候会跟我开玩笑，
然后就会很严肃地回答我。
这才是兄弟嘛！

谢啦，Clem!

我的Dears,来世也要做姐妹哦！
-抱抱-

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i'm in LOVE!

with ONITSUKA TIGER! I'M TIGER!
hohoho!
its so damn expensive in Singapore!
but Clem got them at such low prices in TW!
and i'm going over in June!
i'll get my Tigers!

and also tokidoki!
so adorable!
hohoho~ my Dears know my meaning of adorable well huh~
weeeh!
ROAR!

我很快就回来~* 11:04:00 PM

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Sunday, April 20, 2008

random stuffs...

saw this at ngee aan city...
go into the toilet and you'll become headless...

a small reward from school cause band got silver~

a clearer view of what's inside!

thurday @ bugis with MehMeh~
DURIAN! BELGIAN CHOCOLATE! CHOCOLATE AND HAZELNUT CREAM!
it tastes like kinder brueno! NICE!

MehMeh and me!

me and Alice dotter~

friday, went to a few places, ended up in PS for dinner.
Ajitei! nice food with reasonable price!
cheaper den Waraku!

some of the food that me n QL ordered~

what Clem got for me!
the panda's the most expensive plushie he caught from UFO machines~
thanks bro!

the Flyer~

Clem's waiting when i shot the Flyer~
mai ah neh sian lah~

the Flyer... but nothing beats the beautiful moon~

tag replies:

wt, alice, xingyi, melty:

yesh yesh~ i'll get better~
don't worry!
i always do!
its just a matter of time!
and what happens during this "matter of time"
-hugs-

Mimipox:
heh~ ya, will change your nick when you have recovered and kicking!
thanks for all your cheer-up chats too!
lob you! -hugs-

ah_blur jie:
heh! ya! i don't have the ability to break bond also.
and i want to further my studies too!
so at the moment is to wait till nest year and apply for a TRANSFER!
xiexie ni! -hugs-

我很快就回来~* 11:59:00 PM

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OMG!

CLEMENT IS BACK!

hahahaha~
i am so very happy!
my Dear CLEMENT is back!

clement ong!
i've been thinking about you these few nights leh!
when is clem coming back?
its already 17th April!

and there you are!

i suddenly feel this COURAGE and HAPPINESS overwhelming from the inside of my body!
i think i just missed you too much.
touched anot!?

and clem got me...
my Dear SJ poster! my laogong GACKT poster!
KINDER SURPRISE! x6 hoh!
and something else...
its ok you didn't manage to find the Blackstone cigs.

LOVE YOU!
cya ltr bro!
hohoho!

经过那么多年，还是CLEM最好......

我很快就回来~* 3:02:00 PM

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a lot happened recently...
or should i say since last year...

all these added up...
made me so stressed and demoralised and kind of hopeless for staying in this track...
i feel like breaking too...

went to visit MIMIPOX just now.
it was a great SURPRISE for her!
we felt good too,
cause we needed a place to let out and talk.
her place is just the right place.
and MIMIPOX's sis is like a guiding light to us.
she analysed our situation one by one, especially Mic's,
and all she can say to me is "Sorry".
T.T
but well...
all i have to do is hang on for 1 more year!
and i'll be off to JS or TV!
anywhere...
but HERE!

seems like we always have stories to tell...
and me of course...
have a very interesting one...
QL always tell me "dio pok loh!"
how i wish ok!

so maybe 4 years later,
i'll be in Jakarta!

Mic, jia you!
you can do it!
especially when you have the choice!
SUPPORT YOU!

haiz...
MIMIPOX's sis don't let us break bond leh...
if can i maybe buying my airtix to Jakarta now!

again...
BIG THANKS to:

wt, for being so WORRIED!
and trying to cheer me up with funny pics of SJM.

my dotter Alice for you care and concern.

my grand-dotter Xingyi for being so busy but will still say FIGHTING for me!

阿Q!
真是同病相怜啊！（虽然症状有点不同）
今世做姐妹，下辈子做兄弟吧!

and of course, my STP Dears...
you know who you are!
really love you all leh!

and Limin ah...
we are so fucking worried for you ok!
you know how serious things are when i use vulgarities!
so you better do something!
TALK TO US!

我很快就回来~* 12:34:00 AM

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Saturday, April 19, 2008

sorry Dears...

i am just feeling so unwell and down.
near to the stage of emo...

sorry MIMIPOX...
you said so much yesterday...
but my heart, mind and soul were just too exhausted.
i'm so sorry that i fell asleep when you were comforting me.
how i wish that i'm by your side when you are saying such assuring words.

sorry WT,
i was just very not in the mood to star-chase online.
the MV did took my mind off my troubles for a (short) while.
and my son...
why is he wearing that ugly mask?
you are so very adorable but UGLY and now you want to make yourself look uglier!?
ARE YOU NUTS!?
oh no... you are MONKEY!

BIG THANKS to MEHMEH,
who came all the way from SAJC...
to CHS...
and helped me...
MARK BOOKS!
-love you-&-hugs-
and you still look like a secondary school kid.
ok... ok... so do I...

every Friday...
i have to risk being "compliment" as a little girl...
and also freak my friends out if they are meeting me...

and Alice,
thanks,
Umma will be alright... soon i hope...
-hugs-

its been really difficult to control myself recently...
i even fell asleep in McDonald's!
so sorry QL...
left you there with your chocolate sundae.

and sorry Ellen...
you got me so much SURPRISES...
but i just have no time to meet you.
Wednesday it is!

its been difficult holding a smile up...
but i've been doing it for such a long time.
and when frustration leaks...
i snapped...
even at my mom.
sorry mom.
i just couldn't stand your nagging at that point of time.

and Mic,
i feel so glad for you!
i hope this will happen to me too!
i need to leave that place.
this is for you and everybody, especially... myself.

"有些事现在不做一辈子都不会做"

我很快就回来~* 5:15:00 PM

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Friday, April 18, 2008

wrong...
all is wrong...

i am too fucking tired...
too fucking demoralised...

Mic, i will always support what ever decision that you make.
go for it!

i need to leave this place.

我很快就回来~* 9:27:00 PM

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

sorry Dears, i'm just too exhausted these few days...
and i gey kiang...
i still want to go out and have fun...
go FAAAAAR AWAY somemore...
so... i didn't have the energy to blog.
therefore...
i shall at least reply my Dears' tags...

tag replies:

Dotter:
heh~ have fun jiu hao lah!
learning most important is to HAVE FUN!
and that post for WT is cause she VIOLENTLY REQUESTED for it...
heh heh!
and finally, WE MET UP!
-hugs-
next time we play arcade and take purins together ok!
bobo!

wt:
aiyo...
got work got pay,
no work no say!
u don't understand meh?
you 2 ah!
tsk tsk...
cher work part-time also not happy ah?

Melty:
MELTY!
OKOK! 3 weeks my school also SA1 almost over liao!
and you are coming for my boys' concert!
weeh! can see grand-dotter liao!
happy!
and then we can soon go FONDUE-ING!
-hugs-

my Dears, must take care hoh!

-BIG HUGS-

我很快就回来~* 11:54:00 PM

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Tuesday, April 15, 2008

due to violent request from WT...
i shall blog about her now, midnight...
see i give you FACE leh!
your name is RED! BOLD! IN CAPS and UNDERLINED!

my Dearest WT kept sms-ing me while she's still in lesson.
so nice hoh...
even during lessons also think of me...
then keep asking me how?
no money to go to Korea, how?
skally got money go, no money to spend, how?
so nice hoh...
kept worrying for me... and herself...

then she called me IMMEDIATELY after her school ended.
as usual, cheered me up by talking cock to me...
cracking lame jokes...
so lame... so cold... but i still love you -hugs-
say go home then we chat on msn...
but i went back to school still never see her online...
so i marked and waited...
then went home...

and so dear WT is there waiting for me! online...
updated me about my SON, SJ and the most recent topic of all... SJ-M!
i am soooo very the TRAUMATISED by this... 周觅!
he looks like SHIWON+KANGTA+TEUK!
simply... an ALIEN!
and henry looked like some small little kid in the MV...
totally CANNOT FIT IN!
must get compensation from SM!

i missed my son...
sorry Dear, so busy that i didn't manage to celebrate your birthday...

so much on SJ-M...
now good news from WT!
SJ-T is preparing their new album now!
and so this DEC will be a TROT WINTER cum CHRISTMAS!
OMG!
I WANT TO GET BACK TO KOREA!!
DAE HAN MIN GUK!
CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP!
WT, i don't care...
you go and sell backside, sell tensai or sell kanasai!
just go and get enough money to get to KOREA, stay there and come back!
no money then you can forget about shopping...
and CHER!
prepare your MONEY!

CHINGU DEUR!
DONII OBSEO, HANGUK ODDAE GAYEO!?

so my dears, go and save up your EVERY PENNY ah!

bobo WT

我很快就回来~* 12:16:00 AM

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Monday, April 14, 2008

How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us,
How I longed for the told of the recess bell,
Have you forgotten me?
Or mindless of me?
Tell me that I am not writing into an abyss.
Or that is what's going to become of my heart.

this is so sweet...
and its an educational CM!
hope i didn't get any typo here.

today wasn't a very good start...
the baby who is in my class now, let's call him Confucius, since he is always in a state of confusion and always uses his only talent on my kids...
ohya... never fail to shock me with his lesson plans.
so i wasn't very happy!
but SYF is OVER!
meaning no CCA in the afternoon!
and i have more time!
to... mark... mark... mark... what else?
ohya! MARK!
i was already super down until the last 3rd lesson...
but i saw this COCOA TREE HAMPER on my desk!
KALAVULEH!
A WHOLE HAMPER OF CHOCS!
and confucius actually have the cheek to ask for it ok!
i just ignored him, even if we were secondary schoolmates...
this is a BIG NO NO!
so my spirit is UP again!
see lah! i told you Amber 很好养的！
with my spirit UP and kicking, lessons in 4A went well!
then had lunch with Kai @ J8...
told her about my "EXCITEMENT" in CHS...
she is surprised, but not very shocked...
and she still can hala with me!
前辈！你是zai的！
hohoho!
was back in school at around 4PM, nua a bit and started marking...
then went home happily at 5+PM when it was raining!
and i still have tonnes to mark!
my Dears who aren't magging...
come and help me leh!

我很快就回来~* 6:45:00 PM

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Sunday, April 13, 2008

Saturday

the previous post was blogged on this Saturday morning...
i was so excited about seeing my Dear granddaughter Xmei.
went to school in my eccentric fashion wear and i walked pass... SEC SCH CHOIR!

SHOCKED!
then i met Theresa in the staffroom, she's rehearsing with them, no wonder... poor girl.
did my marking then rushed off to ACSI.
my 不孝孙女 gave me wrong info.
she told me to take bus 14 in front of Ngee Ann City.
but the problem is, the road in front of NAC is a one-way road, meaning THERE'S NO BUS-STOP AT ALL!
bus-stops' at the other side.
and it was raining, me holding 2 BIG sunflowers and an umbrella...
in the end i had no choice but to take a cab.
and by the way, i called my Dear Xmei FOURTEEN times!
and thank you my Dear Melty for telling me where ACSI is~
几经波折, i reached Xmei...
here's her side of the story...

but im really glad for those who supported me all the way and comforted after the thing... i've got a thank you list

firstly to AMBER, omg she totally shocked me when i was abt to start performance and she was jus standing right at the side. and she bought us sunflowers! im jus super glad to see her la. she lost her way to ACSI, somehow managed to find her way to ACSI, and also to the multipurpose hall! ahma you're damn zai, im sry for not picking up your 14 missed calls =( love you lotssss!

heh... ahma loves you lots too!
-BIG HUGS-
poor girl, was practically hugging her when she cried...
my Dears, if you need me, just stretch out your hand and ahma will come flying to you ok!
and i have to say...
Xmei ah... your costume... really can do the "Jailhouse Rock" dance you know...
-HUGS-

after leaving ACSI,
i got back to AMK safe and sound... (heng ah!)
was 犯贱-ing at Tenchi comics...
ya, so busy still go and buy comics!
SLAP ME! (我知道你们不舍的啦！)

reached home at 5.30pm and my relatives from Malaysia came! SURPRISE!
my aunt said i was so 乖, never go out.
i was like -.-'' i went, and came back.
well you see, if Amber is home on Saturday, SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG is the mentality of my family.
then we went to ECP in the evening.
aunt started to ask about boyfriends and such.
she still feels that i am only 18 or 19...
so i can't really blame those taxi uncles who thought i'm only 16 and a FEMALE STUDENT OF CHS, rite?
ohya, by the way, my colleagues have OFFICIALLY noted that i am the first female student of CHS... not proud at all...

my Dears, your PRO AMBER had shown her talent again!
she slept once her head hit the ground... (i was in the tent!)
was sms-ing Xmei too, to make sure that she's fine, alive and kicking.

then came GOOD NEWS!
a SMS from LI MIN!

Dearest fren, i read ur blog... touched by the words that u wrote... sorri to make u worry n super super thanks n gan3 dong4 for ur care n concern!! afterour work, really must go n eat dinner more often, n talk about how "good" e kids are! Hahaha! Coming friday, meetingu all at chinatown to eat, great time to talk about sch... other stuff also! Haha!

WEEEH! LM is alive and kicking again!

so how's the rest of my Dears this week?

Sunday

i realised i CANNOT be a TAITAI!
went to Ann's just now for a scrub+javanese massage+treatment+etc.
i was practically lying down for 4 and a half hours!
and it sums up my whole SUNDAY!

-HUGS my DEARS-
see you Dears soon ok! bobo!

我很快就回来~* 7:52:00 PM

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Saturday, April 12, 2008

SYF is realy a killer...
and i am getting SYF aftermaths...

anyway... was too tired to blog yesterday...
i reached home at 6.30pm, was thinking to take a nap and go to the doc at 7pm, but...
i was KO-ed by Z-monsters and woke up at 6.30AM!

read my Dear Melt's post and am so TOUCHED!

melt: was on the phone with ahma for an hour. AHMA, I MISS TALKING TO YOU! try not to make your life even more exciting than it is now okay! hahaha. if you have a problem, CAN CALL ME! i will abandon my studies for you! ((: ahma, i help you find future ahgong okay! hehehe. and 좋은 사람 비밀이예요! ((: ahma, take care yah. 건강하세요! 사랑해. 그리고 고마워!

my Melty, i HEART you too!

i really missed those days when i call my Dearest granddaughters and they will shout "AHMA" once they pick up my call...
well, they still do now...
hahaha!

and i met Xmei yesterday! with her friend too!
hohoho!
this 2 little sua kus...
don't know that a Capsule Station is called a Capsule Station...
Don't how to get the toy from the Capsule station...
aiyo... reminds me of my boys...
poor girls...
must jia you for your competition ok!
GET GOLD GET GOLD GET GOLD!!!
AHMA WILL BE THERE TO SUPPORT YOU!!!

and when we were on the train going home...

me: what cca are you in?

X: FRISSBEE!

me: 你是狗吗？

X: T.T|||

Friend: MUAHAHAHAHA!

X: i wonder what you are going to say if i tell you my 2nd cca...

me: whats your 2nd cca?

X: interaction club.

me: 你是导盲犬阿Q吗？

X: Y.Y|||

Friend: MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

okok...
-BIG HUGS-

丁老师asked me if i am going out after school yesterday...
i was like... ya... i am... i'm going out to see the doctor...
but... >.< BIG HUGS TO AL MY DEAREST GRANDDAUGHTERS AND ALL MY DEARS!

我很快就回来~* 8:07:00 AM

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Thursday, April 10, 2008

we got a SILVER for SYF!
weeeh!
okok... frankly...
we were kind of disappointed...
we wanted a GOLD.
but we made obvious mistakes...
so...
we should be glad that we got a SILVER.
the boys...
they are glad about it too,
but if its a GOLD, they will feel alot HAPPIER!

really enjoyed the post SYF BBQ at Chelsea's.
big thanks girl!
and we really did work very hard for it.
and big thanks to all your wishes, my Dears!
these little boys ah...
i lent them my NDSL...
and... they took good care of it!
hohoho!

1 down... and ALOT more to go!
my cough is still trying hard to killing me...
its worst during the night especially during the time that i am trying to sleep...
yes yes...
i'll go to see the doc... soon!
i have ALOT of markings to clear...
and my "helping hand" is not helping at all...
instead... he is giving me MORE TROUBLE!
roar!
if i am his CT, i WILL FAIL HIM!
i don't want to be the one to let him out to the world to harm the kids...

and this part is for my Dearest MIMIKO!
MIMIKO! i got the (bad) news from QL.
down with the sickness...
i know its very very tong ku...
and you may not be able to complete your obs...
go and ask your CTs for advice!
you have to...
don't just feel sad and emo by yourself.
go and look for solution!
Deary Ambery (almost puke everytime you call me that) is always here! 24/7!
am not having band till after SA1~
so call me! sms me! jio me out!
my shoulders may be loaded with alot of sai kangs...
but i still can spare some space for you to lean on...
DON'T BE LIKE LI MIN AH!
i tell you...
if you do what she did...
玩失踪啊……
then you better really 失踪 hoh...
if not ah...
heh... heh...

and oh ya!
my Dears!
XMei is having this brainy competition,
Saturday, 12th April, 12:30PM @ ACSI.
i'm going there to support her~
anyone of you Dears want to come?
miss me right?
come lah!

T.T when can i eat my Ellen jiejie give me de Kinder Surprise worr...

-hugs all my Dears-
will post my cute boys pics tml~

我很快就回来~* 10:05:00 PM

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Tuesday, April 8, 2008

To Li Min...

My dear friend,
you knew that we will be very worried if anything happens to you.
you knew that I, who have been to TVPS and sadly, is now is CHS, knows very well how you feel right now.
you also know that you have a bunch of friends who really care for you no matter where you are or what you are doing.

so please...
don't disappear so suddenly again...
i know, or rather, WE know, that you are not very good with words,
but what are friends for?
come to us, come and talk to us.
tell us that you need us and we will definitely be there!
yes, even when SYF is round the corner,
we will still try to find time for you.
please, do not hide your feelings.
if you feel that you can't take it anymore, just tell us.
i may not be in TVPS, but we are so near!
and there's always Ellen and last resort, Matt rite?

you have already shocked us during the last practicum, and now this...
don't do it again, ok...
do not repeat the same mistake again...
you have a choice!
calling me and telling me how bad your kids are,
how heavy your workload is,
how humid your staffroom is,
its all fine with me!
i will definitely pick your call!
call me! meet me! look at me!
you will definitely feel happier!
i'll try my best to cheer you up!
i'll crack very very lame jokes...
i'll listen to your cold jokes too!
we can always find one day and go to Kino to rot!

莉敏啊，
理智点去想一想吧，
这个环境适合你吗？
这份工作适合你吗？
如果不适合，哪有什么工作适合你呢？
你还能走那一条路呢？
如果你真的厌恶这份工作，
你是有选择的！
你可以离开的！
不要这样拖着，
对你的身体、精神、大家都不好。
如果这份工作对你来说是一种负担，
那你真的应该想一想了。

只要你肯伸出手来，
我们就在你身边。
不要把我们推开，知道吗？
你的那句"i am ok le. thanks."真的不够，很让人不安……

注意健康！
Amber

我很快就回来~* 8:49:00 PM

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Monday, April 7, 2008

i'm feeling so sick...
my sore throat n cough is killing me!
n i tink i'll get a fever vv soon...

n...
OMG!
there is a VERY HIGH CHANCE that we'll be performing w the sec sch band...
which will drag till 17th May...
my poor boys!
my poor body...

n i am soooo worried abt LM...
r u ok?
y din u call back or reply my smses?

My Dears, don't 想不开 ok!
有事好商量!
不要做傻事啊！

n come come...
hug hug!
look at me!
im alr at e bottom of the valley!
nobody will or can fall lower than me!
look at how cham i am n u'll feel better!
so look at me!

bobo!

我很快就回来~* 10:22:00 PM

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Sunday, April 6, 2008

come to tink of it...
i realised...
materialistically...
i have all those that i want and need.
even if i don't...
i will get it soon.

and freedom...
(personal space)i have my keys with me 24/7.
(speech)i can be frank with my friends, and i have no worries about it.
(financially)its just a matter of time.

so... what do i lack?
PERSONAL TIME!
will transferring of school increase my personal time?
well...
yes, if i transfer to TVPS.

what else do i need?
i need to further my studies!
which is closely linked to personal time and money!
FAINT!

anyway...
nothing is too difficult to accomplish!
even if it is...
Amber will still stay happy...
cause... I AM STILL ALIVE!
and if anything bad happens...
the most is just die loh...
whats the big deal right!?

my Dears ah...
i know you Dears are very very stressed too~
come come! run to ahma!
let ahma give you a BIG BIG HUG!
ahma will love you Dears forever ok!

*encouraging myself and my Dears*

still having my very serious non-alcoholic hangover...
hope it gets better by tomorrow.

bobo my Dears!
tata!

我很快就回来~* 10:17:00 PM

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omg...
wat a DAY + NIGHT!
hohoho~
okok...
its not fake happiness!
its real crappy n fun!

ok...
everyting started when i fell aslp...
started.. ?.? yeah! really!
n my cousin had to wake me up...
so gently... not good...
Amber will NOT wake up w "its time~ wake up~"

>.<
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Damnit... took me quite a while to use my fone in a proper way...

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Aaron n gf, Amelia.

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Himu n gf, Winnie.

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Me n Winnie!

by the time i fixed my fone... we were on our way back to e ground...
missed e chance to take a pic w ah Yee. tsk... but we had neoprints~

Amelia had to work, so we went over to Suntec EngWah to get tix for 3Kingdoms den rot in e arcade...
i haf totally no skills in playing the UFO machines... so...

MY DEARS! I WAN ALL THESE! MUAHAHAHA!

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i juz cant stop smiling when i see these!!

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some pro actually got THIS ok! n another plastic bag of plushies!

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more of JACK SKELLNGTON!

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SQUEEZE THOSE STITCHES!

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hohoho... My Dears... among these plushies... u noe which im looking at rite?

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UBER CUTE!

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hohoho! i like e yellow ones... look like e grumpy me!

den we went to ben & jerry's..

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before...

during...

the "After" was too disgusting... so... haha~

played Taiko w ah Yee while waiting... i really nd to go to the arcade often...

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ROAR!

ALIEN! guess how much?

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ROAR! 299SGD! pity there wasnt a PREDATOR!

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e QUEEN!

went to watch e movie when Amelia came...
it was 1+ when e movie ended...
but i demanded POOL!
so we drove ard to look for Pools to play~
1st stop... Marina Square~

everyting was closing soon...
so we slacked there abit...

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LOOK! whole set only 9.90SGD!!!

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n this set is sooo CUTE!

we drove ard n ended up at PoolFusion...
peeps, this is good, it closes at 5am!
so anybody who wants late nite pool, go PoolFusion!
had brkfast at Geylang...
reach hm at 6am!
heheh...
so "early" ah~

dropped dead!

我很快就回来~* 10:19:00 AM

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Saturday, April 5, 2008

thurs...

bad encounter...
demoralised...
needs hugs...
lots of hugs...

fri...

tired...
sorethroat...
felt like dying...
had to work...
worked till 9...
went for my HOD's father's wake...
reached home at 11pm and dropped dead...
4A's parents are friendly...
got thanks and praises...
but... im still demoralised...
made me more keen on transfering...
they threw me a baby...
my sec sch mate...
he's going to stick on to me till 9th May...
what am i going to tell the parents!?

sat...

meet the baby for what's going on in my class...
met my band boys...
so tired...
went home...
slacked...
going out w Aaron n gf, Himu n gf n my cousin ltr...
these guys claimed tt they've nt met me for 2 yrs...
fuck lah... opps... tend to get vulgar when im w them...
u guys came to my bday chalet last yr ok...
n slp on MY BED!
roar...
my cousin... she's here since Monday...
but i dun haf anytime for her!

im gg to stay out late tonite!
haf fun! lots of fun!
drown myself in fake happiness...

Miss me my Dears~
i miss u Dears too.

我很快就回来~* 1:47:00 PM

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Thursday, April 3, 2008

心情不好，不想去跑，想去睡了。

lucky seems nv by my side when i enter this... place...
i was nv in a real, total bliss of happiness...
i yearn to get out...
n today...
i actually asked Mehmeh, to die or to trf?
there were ppl to help me...
but i still feel so helpless...
i cant survive here...
so y dun juz let me go?

anyway...
dun wanna tok much abt it...
dun wanna spread my upset-ness to my Dears...
juz gimme HUGS...
tt'll do...
Fuck... i cant even take chocolates to destress!

Meh's e 1st to hug me...
n nw... im kind of like... comforting her...
it usually ends like tt...
i'm used to it...

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was watching e last epi of Hong Gi-Dong 《快刀洪吉童》.
金典对白：

1 by 爱上洪吉童的大小姐对自己说：
“我要远走他乡，把自己送到远方，去一个不想看到的可以不看，不想听到的可以不听的远方……慢慢的……放飞我心中的你。”

2 by 爱上利禄才变得像人样的皇上（颤抖+流泪）：
“我心中的人……将会死去……你走吧。”

3 by 利禄 to 王上的侍卫（打斗ing）：
“我所认识的好人公子都快要死了，快去守护他吧。”

haiz...
ok... heng i skipped all e mushy mushy part...

shld it rain HEAVILY tml?
wat ever...

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im not the kind of princess who waits for the prince to come n save her...
im the sadako who tries hard to crawl out of the well...
n in the meantime... freaking some ppl out...
curse u ppl... i am coming out!

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what i ordered frm WARAKU w CLem...

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what Ellen ordered frm Kopi Club...

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what i ordered frm Kopi Club...

我很快就回来~* 8:41:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 2, 2008

omg!
today i am soooooo happy ah!
i no need to go run liao!
hohoho!

ELLEN GOT ME KINDER SURPRISE!
MUAHAHAHAHA!
知我者莫若ELLEN也啊！
我看我要认她做干姐了！
爱你爱你爱你！！！

we wanted to watch SKY OF LOVE today...
its the last day at Cathay Orchard (for those who doesnt know where... its actually CINE!)
i was sooooo confident that there will still be tix...
but who knows! SOLD OUT!
SURPRISE!!

OK... i got it from Ellen before we got down the cab at cine.
den i went to the basement to get tix n Ellen went to get some mags.
i was sooooo optimistic ah...
i told Ellen (and myself):有失必有得，没得看戏，得到这个(kinder surprise)也不错啊！"
waaah~ i really 看得很开 leh!
i can be easily pacified by a box of chocs！
hehehe!

we din waste the day doh~
went to kino and looked at BOOKS!
these books really made me happy!
coz... i dun haf to MARK them!
hohoho!
other den NANA18, we got the books tt we wanted...
den we nua-ed at Kopi Club... i mean Coffee Club...
a cafe doesnt really suit me nw...
y? SORETHROAT!
roar...
but den...
Amber is very 乖 de...
Amber ordered CHEESE & MUSHROOMS & CHEESE & MUSHROOMS & CHEESE!
in other words... lots of CHEESE & MUSHROOMS!
Ellen had Mushroom Swiss Cheese~
omg! okok... Amber & Ellen are real similar!
including our personality...
i'm sumting like a younger and wilder but poorer vers of Ellen.
we both had CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE TOPPED W CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM!
waah... bloody smooth! opps...
i actually put down my comics for the MILKSHAKE ok!
sorry Kaori... the MilkShake is too attractive!
n super 乖 Amber got herself a strawberry shortcake!
Ellen had Rum and Raisin...
we talked alot...
and i mean alot!!
heh~ HAPPY!

den we went down to e basement to look for more Kinder Surprise but found nought.
but i am still happy... coz i haf 1 box in hand!
den Ellen went to get her breakfast for tml and we took e train hm~
hohoho!

in e train...
super squeezy...
den i saw 2 guys who r quite tall...
FAINT...
nono... not handsome or pretty boys...
they r standing face to face, super near to e door.
e guy facing e door was trying to pull himself away frm his fren...
-.-'' bth... as if ppl will tink tt they r... erm hrm...
den his fren -.-'' "你在做什么！？"
hahaha! den them mumbled...
okok... if u r nt there... u dun understand how funny e situation was...

anyway~
its a happy day!!!
lets hope tml will be 1 too!
hohoho!

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dotter: YESH YESH! MEETUP!! after my SYF ok! pray for my band hoh! love ya!

Melt: aiyo... my sweet granddotter leh... i'm really touched when i asked u wat do u wan frm tw n u said u wan me to come back safely... LOVE U!

wt: eh... im gg to get contact lens soon! will be amBLIND nomore!

Les: -.-'' i told wt to remove tt... but she said its hard work... >.< ok... lets respect her hard work. so did u get ur w960i w tt 988sgd? hehehe

LOVE MY DEARS and special LOVES N THANKS TO ELLEN!

我很快就回来~* 11:17:00 PM

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Tuesday, April 1, 2008

oh man...
hate it when my Dears get hurt...

sorry Melty...
was so busy tt ahma neglected u...
r u feeling better nw?
did ahma's lame jokes cheer u up?
i tink silly tings tt ahma did did stunned u rite?
hehehe!
HUGS!
ahma will try her best to grow up ok!

Amber is always changing...
n so does her nick...
Amber was once named Amblur...
reason? coz she IS BLUR!
n nw... she is nicknamed AMBLIND!
reason? she is somewhat... BLIND!
ya... really... my Dears understand why...
n so do my colleagues...

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爱。
今天快速的看了一本叫《爱心树》的书。
应为名比较贴切，"The Giving Tree".
这棵树爱上了一个常在它身边玩乐的小男孩。
它很快乐。
到小男孩长大了之后，
树把果子啊、树枝啊、甚至是树干也给了它永远的小男孩。
小男孩贪得无厌，可是树却无止境的给。
它很快乐。
直到最后，树只剩下树根了，它还让小男孩坐在它上面。
树很快乐。

这就是爱？
我……能够给这种爱吗？
能！我的潜在是双鱼座耶！
我什么做不出来！？
我还真担心我做得出来啊！

还有《失落的一角》"The Missing Piece",
大家应该听过吧？
人永远都在寻找让他圆满的东西。
有人找到权贵；有人找到爱。
我？刚好两样都没有耶！
有！我有什么？
现在，我有我的Dears的爱！

现在，很矛盾。
是应该寻找爱，还是等待爱呢？
我啊？
随缘咯！（因为大家都那么说，大家是谁？年纪比我大得大家咯！）

还有一本叫《我想要爱》。
好想要这本书哦！
这是一本寻找爱的书！

不知怎的，
错爱总是找上我，
我也总是找上错爱。

最近，潇洒有来找过我哦！

我的Dears，好好照顾自己哦！
Melt要乐观点！
ahma请你吃冰淇淋！
Melly也要好好照顾自己哦！
偏头痛不好玩的！
WT不要再堕落了！快点做工！还想回韩国吗！？
Alice和咩咩也加油哦！

啵啵！
Lean on me, my Dears, you can, always.

我很快就回来~* 10:03:00 PM

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Shattered

release me... free me... unframe me...

琥珀
]_简单＋复杂
]_乐观＋悲观
]_冷静＋浮躁
]_常常会觉得自己不属于这个世界
]_酷爱视觉系摇滚乐
]_没有音乐会死
]_常被朋友说很好养，有床有吃即可
]_喜欢乱中有序，序中有乱
]_不喜欢被人管着，但喜欢被人疼着
]_喜欢非一般的人事物
]_有着一大堆的可能
]_对BL走火入魔
]_矛盾的；多变的

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H三
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