you.can.lock.yourself.up.but.please unframe me

累泪

2009-09-16T12:33:00.002+08:00

你们好吗？
好~那就好……

因为我不好。。。
我生病了，今天是第三天了，好难受。
难受得想死那种。

这次医生给我好多药。
我不怕吃药，但是我厌恶吃药。
在柜台前，我为了我的惊愕感到羞愧。

我活该吧。

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我想发泄，想哭，但是好累，累得没力气哭了。
我也好久没哭了，这不健康。

所以，我是里里外外都不健康。

现在觉得，我什么都没办法做，什么都做不好。
教育这条路我走错了。
甚至是做人这条路我也走错了。

我上辈子是做了什么好事，得到神的怜爱，投胎成人的？
这辈子别做了。

我好累，可不可以让我一睡不起呢？

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看到美好的事物会令我开心。
可惜，我现在的一切都不美好。

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我好想好想把手机给砸了。
没有手机不会死的，
可是会不方便得要死。
手机已经被我列入“厌恶/惧怕”的黑名单里了。。。
看看哪一天就把它砸了。
这是我现在的short-term goal。

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明天会更好吗？
你的会吗？
会？那恭喜你了！

可惜我的不会。
我有meet不完的DEADLINE。
奇怪哦。。。
这就是地狱了。。。
因为自杀式的做出了决定，所以上天重判我要死上好几次。
不断重复地meet deadline。。。

所以，
自杀的罪名就是这么重。
自杀的惩罚就是这么重。

所以，
我也不害怕地狱，
这里不天天都是吗？
可能这世界上只有天堂和地狱，没有人间呢……

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希望各位妈妈和宝宝健康。

...

2009-06-26T11:23:00.002+08:00

these are some of my 烦-est days...

i am incapable...
i thot of quitting...
breaking the bond...
and "tink-not-open"...

and there will always be this 阴影 whenever i am there...

holis are never never a good way of escape...
only total termination is...

for my health n my family and of course many many stuffs...
its time for me to go...

thanks alot limin for opening my eyes...
u noe how its like...
haha... 往事不堪回首...
oh, u even calculated the bond fees i have to pay!
*no pun intended*

and there's Q...
tings cant be tt bad rite?
还是那句话“不就烂命一条吗？”

and there's ellen...
-hugs-
yeap... take it easy...
i noe i'm lousy... i've tried...
and i'm still lousy...
^.^ take it easy...
ok... this is v negative...
but i noe...
take it easy...

and QL...
haha... not tinking about breaking the bond lah...
its the v last resort anyway...
牙一咬就过去了！
rite?

its really tough to open up when we r in a group hala-ing...
like... "hey, lets talk about my problems TOGETHER!"
hahaha... limin...
other den ytd nite, we have NEVER tok about tings sooooo deep inside our hearts...
its good... a really good feeling...

i've to say...
i feel vvv 内疚 about transfering...
there's syf next yr...
i really wan to help or "redempt" myself... help in the cockpit team...
but i juz stand the atmosphere...
fitting in itself is a big problem...
or i am the problem...
i've tried...
really...
but i cant even do the basics...

its being soooo long...
its is soooo big...
n i feel soooo small...
yeah limin, just like u did...

我的小龙女呢？

2009-04-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

铁女也有无聊的时候……

更何况我现在是个堕落的腐女……

做了2个测试……
妈呀……答案都一样……
怎么金庸的小说里除了情情爱爱就没别的了吗？

1 [杨过]类型的人
因为个性执着，对自己心仪的人会努力的守候在她(他)身旁，
有时可能会不敢明明白白作出爱的告白，但专情的她(他)，若遇到
恋人的背叛，他必会使尽全力去挽回，是受压力愈大反弹愈大，
永远不服输的人。

2 你是《神雕侠侣》中的杨过，作为一个孤儿，和生活的压力对抗，在被郭靖收留之后，郭靖要杨过作圣人的期望，使得杨过几乎时刻要反抗，才能生存下去。杨过到了全真教中，受尽了欺负，日后在神雕处、郭襄处得到了温暖。杨过终其一生，和小龙女是分不开的。杨过和小龙女的名分是师徒，但他们硬是非结成夫妻不可。小龙女只是迷惑，杨过却是有意识的反抗，但却又配合无间，终于使得各色人等，全败下阵来。杨过的等级是中。谢科建议你少一些棱角，也许很多办不成的事情也就成了。

我就是怪咖啦……
我的小龙女在哪里？

T.T

缺陷……

2009-04-12T19:52:00.001+08:00

以前听认识的人说，
神是完美的，可是他做出来的人不是。
为什么呢？
不能毁掉再从新做过吗？
既然自己做出来的东西不完美，
那又为什么要生气，用大水灾来淹死他们呢？

不解……

瑕疵品……
我就是个瑕疵品……
什么时候会来一场洪水淹死我？
对哦……他说了不再用水的……

那什么时候来一场大火烧死我？

沮丧……低潮……萎靡不振到了极点……
好像是第一次时时刻刻想不开的样子……
又有想离开的念头了……

瑕疵品瑕疵品瑕疵品瑕疵品瑕疵品

淡淡的生日最开心！

2009-03-10T21:35:00.004+08:00

原来……

淡淡的生日最开心！

今年……
可能……我累了……
可能……我腻了……

我不想像往年一样，铺张地过生日……
我只要普普通通，安安静静地过。

也跟往年一样，我得到了我想要的。

想想以前，
连照张相的时间都没有……
最后人去楼空，身心疲惫……

还是这样好……

谢谢各位的祝福！
希望生日愿望回成真！

PS: 特别谢谢2为好兄弟~你们真是太宠我了！
KK去香港要一切顺利哦！
PH早日找到好工作！
还有我那一家人，爱你们哦！

祝我生日快乐~

2009-03-05T19:43:00.001+08:00

一年后……

呵呵……
真是转眼间，就一年后了……

一年后，原来什么都没有……

今年，我想普普通通安安静静地过生日……

心里也只有一个愿望……

祝我生日快乐~

快乐变质

2009-02-06T02:21:00.002+08:00

我很快乐，

可是……

怎么快乐总是这么快变质？

我喜欢奶酪，

可是我没有以人工将快乐变质啊……

是湿气让快乐发霉了吗？

还是在一切过期前，好好享受吧……

busily happy and... not

2009-02-02T21:30:00.002+08:00

i have been seriously blogging EVERY SINGLE DAY!

but not here...
not this one...

its e other one that i got praised by a parent.

its my class blog.

since the year started...

everything has been smooth... surprisingly smooth...

well... its my year...
a lucky year for the tigers...

busily happy...
but something is just missing...

yes! that's the thing!
the thing that i've been missing all these years and now i've missed it so terribly...
and yet i can still take it with an open heart.
its not that bad.
not bad at all when you have the freedom that can drown you in loneliness.

its not bad actually when you can drown the same loneliness with slumber and weird dreams.
not that i have many of them.

念念不忘的误会……
在我这一场人生戏里，你……只不过是一则毫无营养可言的糖果广告。

是吗？

health problem...

2009-01-07T17:05:00.001+08:00

am currently experiencing some health problem/s kind of similar to Ryn's...
and if the problem persist...
shit... then i'll have to go get an x-ray...

7th day_

2008-12-17T19:27:00.002+08:00

I SAW SHIWON, KYUHYUN AND MY SON (EUNHYUK)!

AND SHIWON TALKED TO US!!!

MUAHAHAHA!

i spent the previous 2 days shopping...
buying cheap winter clothes and shoes that i can wear in Singapore...
and also to COEX to accomplish the many tasks that my friends requested...
both days very FRUITFUL till my wallet's almost empty...

and the 7th day...

we went to SM! (please play dramatic music and give me some lightning flashes in the back ground)

we first saw KYUHYUN, he drove a white hyundai...
he tried to park in between two cars, and old lady saw that helped him with it...
she encouraged him when he got out of his car and hit him on his butt...
Kyunhyun kept coming out to get things, like he kept forgetting to bring the into the building.
he looked like mousey...

then i saw my son in a black Hyundai...
his parking skill is good...
still as silly as ever...
i think i saw too much of my son...
so i wasn't as excited...
just happy that he is still him~
my monkey~

next was SHIWON!
OMGOMGOMG!
he drove a white Audi convertible...
when he stepped out of his car, our first reaction was "GREEK GOD"!!!
WT said she hear him asking us in Korean why were we here when its raining...
seeing that we didn't reply and still in a state of OoO!?
he asked "中国人吗？"
i replied "不是！不是！我们是新加坡人！"
there was obvious joy in my voice~
then he was in a state of shock... OoO!!!
smiled, nodded and went into SM... Obviously surprised and in joy too~
handsome horsey~

we continued to wait...
and some thought they saw Yoochun...
which WT figured that it was Yesung...
but whatever...
i'm happy enough to have seen that three...

so today...
i saw ...

Mousey~

Monkey~

and Horsey~

4th Day_

2008-12-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

4th Day_

i didn't sleep well...
or rather...
i didn't get to sleep at all...

WT's so tired, she snored like thunder through out the night...
and the 2 angmos staying in another room were happily watching some show and laughing like they'll never get a chance to laugh again... until at least 2a.m.

our phone rang at 3.30a.m.
we are supposed to get up and go to SBS for Inkigayo...
erm... we continued to sleep till 6.30a.m.

SPOILERS ALERT!!!
SADNESS OVERFLOWS!!!

bad news everyone... really bad news...
prepare yourself, weak-hearted ones...
embraces your fellow crazy fangirl-mates...
it is... almost the end of the world!!!

the easiest music show (for me, Cher and WT) to get in is now unavailable for foreign non-members of the official fanclub!!!
meaning, you have to be an official member of the fanclub or your idol/s, have an IC and your idol/s CD!
anything less, then say BYE BYE!
the above information applies to INKIGAYO!

now... for Music Core...
its all about BALLOTING!
so... forget it...

and since MNET MCountdown is already over...
we didn't bother to find out how to get there or in there...

Music Bank?
its still a mystery...
somebody help us solve it, please?

cab fare for nought...
long hours of Q-ing for nought...
and long hours and distance searching for Goobnae Chicken for NOUGHT!

WHAT HAVE WE BEEN DOING FOR TODAY!?

ohya... I bought a pair of scissors from a very rude Korean today...
now isn't that exciting?

and ohya...
i think the best time of the day is at Sun Hee ( our guest house owner)'s husband's small little cafe~ the coffees' nice~ for a cold fruitless winter day + a night of fruitless slumber...

and erm... WT is snoring again... disturbingly loud...
and OMG! THE 2 ANGMOS ARE BACK!
please... DON'T! let their lappies hang or whatever... just DON'T let them open their mouth!
make them WHAM and ZZZZZZ all the way till tomorrow morning!

PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE!

Amen!

1st, 2nd and 3rd Day in Korea_

2008-12-13T20:48:00.002+08:00

1st, 2nd and 3rd Day in Korea_

hrmm...
it's has been really less exciting than last year...
it's also less cold this 3 days.
i wonder why...

anyway, i think it is turning colder tonight, sensed it when we were going home from Shinchon.

1st Day_

We reached Sun Hee's guest house at around 8a.m.
it's so nice to meet her again...
times are bad and she told us that she sold her other guest house that we stayed in last year.
we stayed in the main house, which we detested at first...
it was real stinky last year, many guests didn't bath as it was too cold...
this year seems ok
We bought food and left it in e fridge with names written on them... just in case...
had breakfast... slept and erm... had DINNER!
eventful day huh...

We went to MBC as WT wanted to see TY at ChinChin...
but instead... guess who we saw!?

DJ Tukutz from Epik High!!!

hahaha~
so very unexpected...
he's actually not bad looking...
very fair complexion, 清秀-looking.
but he talked really loud...
so we didn't bothered to talk to him...
then WT realised that he can converse in English...
argh... wasted... but doesn't hurt much...
I kind of lost the hype of fangirl-ing already...

2nd Day_

We went to Myeongdong, the shopping heaven...
In my point of view, it's better than Dongdaemun...
things are cheaper.

Ate very delicious mandu or meat dumplings or 饺子 ( Myeong-in 名人 ).
As we feel that the prices for skin products are not cheap enough, we decided to wait till next week to 大开杀戒! MUAHAHAHA!

I think bad weather negatively affects my equilibrium...
I've been slating to the left side in a shocking rate that WT commented I may get hit by a car in minutes even if I am walking on the pavement...
and in Korea... I've turned into someone who "到了韩国就不要命了" quoted from WT.
when ever WT says "小心车子撞死你！"
I'll reply her "撞死我吧！撞死我吧！"
haiz... it's weird... I can't really hear the cars here...
they are so quiet... unlike those in Singapore...

3rd Day_

our plan was Hongik University > Ehwa University > Shinchon...
then we realised the stations were lined up in this way: Hongik > Shinchon > Ehwa...
-.-''
ok... anyway... we realised that Hongik is quite a good shopping place, so we took around 2 hours plus to shop around...
and we erm...
surprisingly DUMBed... we WALKED to Shinchon...
we wanted to take a cab... ( i prefered trains)
but the drive told us its very near, we can walk...
woah! if you say that to everyone, what are you suppose to earn?
and trust me...
its is not walkable distance for Singaporean...
its about 2 -3 MRT stops compared to Singapore's...

anyway... we spazzed about TWILIGHT all the way...
we kept seeing posters after posters of TWILIGHT!
ohya...
we spazz about Twilight EVERYDAY!
EVERY SINGLE DAY!
muahahaha~
sweet...

Shinchon is a nice shopping place too...
we were looking for DCX, the branch in Myeongdong failed to exist...
so Cher found me another one in Shinchon.
we had a really hard time looking for it...
thanks to a Taiwanese student, she taught us how to go there...
love this shop...

and yeap, we missed Ehwa...

so end of the day... back home and cook dinner...
got to wake up early tommorow as we are going to Inkigayo~
Let's hope that we can get into the studio! (fingers crossed)

PS to Jones:
i've yet to see those brands that you want...

Holi Announcement!!!

2008-12-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

Holiday Announcement!!!

Dear Dears!

I'll be back on 9th of December 2008 (Tuesday), reaching Singapore at around 6PM...

Then, I'll be flying to Korea on 10th of December 2008 (Wednesday), around 11PM.

So, if you have anything you need to tell me, pls email me, DO NOT leave me an offline msg.

If you need me to buy anything, PLEASE limit it to ONE item and transfer money to my bank acct, pls ask Wenting for my acct number.

okie~ i do miss u Dears a bit...

"The world holds no interest to me without you..." Quoting from Edward~

SWEET!
remember to watch TWILIGHT!!!

这辈子都离不开他了……

2008-11-28T04:54:00.002+08:00

我看我这辈子都离不开他了……

他是一座我永远都翻不过的墙……
或者说……
不管我怎么爬墙，最后，还是会回到他身边。

他现在在Romania拍戏哦！
戏名叫"Bunraku"，第二男主角，饰演一名武士，好人啊！
老公，你又赚到了……
现在很开心吧！

A mysterious drifter (Josh Hartnett) and an ardent young Japanese warrior Yoshi (Camui Gackt) arrive in a town that is terrorized by criminals. Each with a separate mission, guided by the wisdom of The Bartender (Woody Harrelson) the two join forces to bring down the corrupt reign of Nicola (Ron Perlman), and his lady Alexandra (Demi Moore).

YOSHI!
Gackt, Yoshi is the name of ur ex-drummer!
Yoshi is the name of this cute little dino in Super Mario!
what were you thinking!?
KENSHIN is a nice name!
ok... I'm happy as long as you are...

好了……
爽了……
现在呢……
最后的疑问……
老公啊！那场红白……观众在哪里啊？？？

the smell of holiday is in the air!

2008-11-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

the smell of holiday is in the air~

this few weeks was really tough for me...

i have been forced to drop my almost-got-it CCA aka CO.
i have been forced to drop my non-IP commitee, not that i mind...
and...
i have been forced to CHOOSE AN RO!

please...

its been very very tough ok...
met key personnel, VP and P...
talk and talk and talk...

and now...

I AM OUT OF THINKING COMM!
happy for me?
OF COURSE!

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O考完了，恭喜各位小朋友啊！
Q现在的心情也好多了。

记得有一天，我跟QT说了一句很理性的话……

“在喜欢一个人的时候，我们会无限量的美化他。
美化和他有关的一切，使之自己无法自拔。”

所以各位朋友要小心啊……
不要被自己美化的人事物蒙蔽了自己的眼睛。

在公教的日子真叫人忐忑不安啊……
我想要好好做个老师……
好好过日子……
好好努力……

自从mimiko跟我说了她的是之后，
我就好替她担心。
我不希望它步我的后尘。
我们有很多相似的地方，又有极不相似的地方。
后来诊了诊她的“病情”才发现也不是很惨，有的救。
只要不胡思乱想就有的救了。

还有，我发现我的症状是最为轻微的！
至少在心花怒放之余，我还会收敛一下，不会把照片到处挂。
吓死人了！
我还是个有职业道德的人！
感恩啊！

我需要去散散心。
如果12月去不了韩国怎么办！？
救命啊！

holiday? HOLIDAY!

2008-11-02T21:59:00.002+08:00

ok...
its HOLIDAY!
soon... i think...

i erm... am still busy... actually...
i have to finish this BIG project...
big THINKING project...
that makes my kids THINK!

anyway...
i am still struggling to "give birth" to all this holistic ideas...
which are supposed to be so called handed in on Wednesday.
opps...
procrastinating really kills...

am going back to school tomorrow,
no kids... HAPPY!
work to clear and band duties... not very happy.

Tuesday!
school work...
K-POP CONCERT!
oh me mama!
with WT, Cheryl, Fahmi, and other fans!
VOICE OF SOUL ROX!

Wednesday...
big day for big thinking project.

Thurday...
more school work and duties...
continue with big thinking project...

Friday...
same... but... ITS FRIDAY!

ok, now lets talk about plans further ahead...
DECEMBER!
I've dedicated my first three days of December to Ah Q,
Q... 我们两个还真的是同病相怜啊！
不过Q惨一点，她拥有过，要放手自然难一点。

4th of Dec, i'll be on my way to Perak, Ipoh in Malaysia!
its been a really long time since i last visit my relatives there...
i'll be back on 9th Dec...

10th of Dec, i should be on my way to Korea...
lets hope its a direct flight...
and erm...
we should be taking Korea Air too! weeh!
and i'll be back on either 27th or 28th of Dec~
who is it with this time?
WT and Little Eileen...
who is Little Eileen?
i have no idea...
HAHAHAHA!

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WT说我的blog都快死了……
no no...应该说是已经死了。
我说：“没有啦！本来有不开心的事想blog的，
可是很快就有快乐的事情取代了不快乐的事，
因为快乐，就不想blog啦！”

歹势啦！
我就是少根筋啦！
不快乐的事本来就不是很挂心，
也本来就很因为小事而感到开心。
所以，到头来也没什么好blog的啦！

咩哈哈哈哈！

好啦好啦！
现在完成这个大project最重要啦！

各位Dears，我会想你们的！
波波！

心境

2008-10-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

说真的……
现在啊……
连我自己都不知道自己是什么心情，什么心境了。

我的齊歡什么时候出现啊？

傻子！

林峰-你并不孤单(粤)

你大概自觉不吸引
找不到恋人
你大概路过望别人
一个个热吻
餐店中完全卖气氛
偏你却是单身
令你不合群
可怜人从没有爱侣相拥一吻
你大概自尊心不再
再不敢出来
你大概害怕到未来
一世也没被人爱
请看开看别人甜蜜也许是意外
不只你和自卑比赛
明日或者相爱变传奇
但是你必先好好生活争气
生命似在垂死只会被嫌弃
在这残酷世纪不断别离
能自爱别与世间去比
让自信优雅地哪愁没运气
上天总找到你
来日注定爱的总爱你
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

这就是我现在天真而快要窒息的小小脑袋的期盼吧……

大力推荐大家去看《女人唔易做》！
华文名《女人不易做》！

里面有很多经典台词，
其一：人最可怕的就是一想就想着负面的事！

多有道理啊！

傻子！不要再想了！
林峯说……
啊不是！是唱！
林峯唱“好好生活争气”啊！
齊歡大哥也嘱咐要“活好当下”的！

加油吧！傻子！

爱不疚

2008-10-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

这是林峰的歌，《溏心风暴之家好月圆》的插曲——《爱不疚》……
好nice的一首歌哦！
当然啦！是我的林峰唱的嘛！

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然后就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

昨天跟lisa聊，
不愧是经验老道的魔羯座啊……
她的忍功可是一流的！
忍耐等待和付出，lisa很理智的选择了忍耐等待。
她说她也是很感性的……
每个人都有感性的时候啊……
我的感性好像已经被埋没封锁在理性之下了。

现在……
还有什么能让我流泪呢？
没了……吧？

lisa选择了忍耐是以免以后受伤，
因为，如果双方付出不平等，
付出多的一方会受伤的。
她已经活过了单方面付出牺牲就足够的年龄了。

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

现在不是一般的忙。
明年我就会完完全全属于thinking comm，
教两班3年级，
好像是自立门户般，
独自努力……还是独自挣扎呢？

不知道啊……
烦死了！

昨天不知道是踩了那位神仙的脚了……
跟我聊天的都聊到他。
所以现在update一下大家……
没有，没有part2。

阿Q要考O了，现在还过着浑浑噩噩的日子……
这样不行哦！
可是我又有什么资格说人家呢？
我还不是过着要不时提醒自己，自己还活着，日子还是要过的。

tired...

2008-09-28T17:22:00.002+08:00

累累累累累累累累累！

怎几万亿个“累”字了得？

Thy shalt not do stocking taking in thy's life time AGAIN!

threads of thots~

2008-09-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

have been very tired lately...
have been thinking a lot lately...
my room and my table is flooded with work...
even my FUTURE is flooded with work...

its so unpredictable...
the only thing that i am not surprised of is...
MORE WORK!

============================

watched wall-e...
a very sweet cartoon...
but the start of it actually reminded me of "i am legend"...
like will smith thought he is the last man on earth...
and wall-e is definitely the last interactive figure on earth...
its so... barren...
no life at all...
and the roach is soooo cute!
omg!
but i still prefer it to be crashed under those belts...
if i am the last living being on earth...
i would NOT like to be accompanied by roaches.

wall-e...
it made people realised that things are there...
its just that they did not realise it!
simple and beautiful things!

like...
many many things...
well...
i realised it...
but...
i can't help but quarrel with mum... argh!

ok... ok...
anyway...
dream a little dream~
why can't i?
well... silly me still has hopes ok?
if it did not turn out how i want it to be...
then i'll wait for my next birthday wish!
birthday wishes ALWAYS works!
they NEVER fails!

really!
try it!
its works! at least for me...
but remember to wish WHOLE-HEARTEDLY!
i made a wish half-heartedly this year...
and i had half of each...
roar...
my fault anyway~
but... thanks!

trapped

2008-09-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

i feel so trapped...
can't break out of the norm...
this is so not right!

i don't feel young...
nor do i feel old...
i feel weird...

my skull is locked tight...
something is not changing...
but needs to...

i don't feel right...
not lonely (i think i'm used to it already)...
not isolated...
trapped...
a bit lost... maybe...
perplexed...

let nature takes its course again?
how many chances will i lose again this time?

=================================

宇宙小毛球片尾曲

银河是宇宙的大街
街上有繁星点点
希望是挡雨的屋檐
让梦看见蓝天

辛苦的汗水最宝贵
一滴换一种体会
心和心反覆的排练
好戏正要上演

和世界面对面
是爱和信念
每一步踏的更坚决
一路上你我走在同一边

冷漠的人群是阴天
热情的心是晴天
愉快的天色是蓝天
我站在你身边

~~~~~~~~~~~~

那谁站在我身边呢？

Aug Updates~

2008-08-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

OK Dears~
just some updates...

1. Malacca Trip with 娘家 at the end of August!
let's hope that this trip is successful~
who's “娘家”?
they are my Dears in TVPS~
hohoho!

2. I am NOT going for SM Town Thailand Concert...
Sadded... not really lah... i knew that it will cost me a lot...
also meaning to eat up my Back-to-Korea Trip fund...
so... its OK~
WT and Cher, have fun!
remember to get me tour goods ok!

3. I am going BACK to KOREA!
but i have YET to book the air tickets...
goodness... WT! we have to hurry up!
tickets selling fast!!!

4. Some of my colleagues and I had completed the 5KM ~~walk~~RUN from MacRitchie to CHS (the LOOOOONG way).
we were real lucky...
it rained the previous night, so we didn't have to ~~walk~~RUN from Clementi to CHS.
why did it turn from WALK to RUN!?
we teachers were literately being human roadblocks...
running from "stations" to "stations" to stop cars...
there were some really "ugly" happenings...
haiz...
this is a mad and ugly world...

5. Went to a chalet organised by a colleague with 夫家.
Dears should know which side 夫家 is, right?
CHS!
it was...
fun...
but didn't gain as much things as i expected...
i still feel quite far...

6. went to have buffet with some of 夫家's colleagues again...
mainly those from SR2.
it was FUN!
went to Yuki Yaki, the one that has ice-fried ice cream...
then went to met another side of 夫家's colleagues,
it was a teacher's birthday!
from them...
i realised...
they felt a bit far too...
just like how i feel...
not really into the family feeling...
you know?

************************************

ok. ok. ok.
i think i have to be more discreet about my 娘家 when i', in front of my 夫家.
haiz...

MALACCA! MALACCA! MALACCA!

OPPS...
did I said something about discreet?

-hugs-

likes and... mostly dislikes...

2008-08-03T22:55:00.003+08:00

haiz...
had been blog hopping...
something that i don't always do...
and even if i do...
i don't hop to more than 3 blogs...
went to Ivy's...

who in CHS will ki siao with me like that?
WHO!?
everybody is just to busy to be crazy!
this is what i DO NOT like about CHS...
everybody's too busy...
no time for fun...

and ohya...
about the stress matter...
i just came to realise...

I AM STRESSED!

and its showing all over my face!
i think very soon...
the pimples on my face can form the word "STRESSED" when traced!
breakout! serious breakout!
i need to see the doc...
T.T

the 25KM overnight walk is coming very soon...
then the CHMA aka CH Mahjong Awards...
for teachers only... at Ding lao shi's chalet...
i'll be totally zombiefied and spouting nonsense...
great...
and also more pimples to come with it...

haiz...
nice work...

stress? stress!

2008-08-01T22:19:00.003+08:00

ok...
people have been asking me if i am stress...
its both yes and no...

there will always be stress in work...
but to different extend...

teaching?
i love teaching...
but somehow... not teaching in CHS...

thinking?
i love to think...
but somehow... thinking comm is consider a "stress"...
i can't see where i'm going in this comm...
at the moment...
its still at the stage of 纸上谈army...
i'm not sure of what he wants...
not sure of how innovative is his innovative...
it is totally "前途无亮"...

and OMG too...
my comrades are stressed too...
QT, as our "head"... super stress...
she is also unsure of what he wants...

Kai...
poor Kai...
she is sick...
she needs good rest...

Mic...
Science...
very high expectations from Din...
no good...

argh...

=========================

7月了……
有不好的预感……
30晚我已经走路踏空，
今天又连扑了2次地。
昨天还把防小人的尾指给摔碎了。
残了……
对了！
噩耗昨天就开始了！
以为可以安安全全的回到家……
谁知道会在J8看到他……
倒霉到家了！

又要耍我了，是吧？
认哉了……

Junjou Romantica...

2008-07-29T00:13:00.002+08:00

ok... ok...
its in my blood i think...
and ohya!
its even in my name!!!
LBL!
Dears~ what does it stands for!?

LOVES BL!

muahahaha~
ya...
was watching Junjou Romantica...
its erm...
a Yaoi anime...
for people who doesn't know what Yaoi means...
its simple BoyLove or if you want to use the term "GAY"...

very mushy and sweet anime...
discreet... not much of adult content...
but only for Yaoi fans!

so now...
the important question is...
how did the dubbers manage to go through all THESE!?
are they... Yaoi fans too?
but... Yaoi is for GIRLS and Yuri is for guys!
OMG! OMG! OMG!
someone! tell me HOOOOOOOOOW!

SG World of Guiniess... or watever its called...

2008-07-27T23:07:00.002+08:00

Congrats to all Townsvillites!
You've won again! and for the final round!
and i was there to witness it...

well...
i actually though it was a be-there-to-support-MORALLY-and-lets-go-for-dinner day...
so i dressed up~
just as usual when i am meeting my ex-colleagues...
so... my dress-up is normal for them...
but it seemed to attract the media...
and i got an interview...
great...
DON'T WATCH TV ON TUESDAY AH!
serious...
it was a no-big-deal thingy...
i was there...
i saw that they needed help...
so i 搬搬抬抬 but was happy about it...
ya... then i think i walked around too much and got too much attention...
great...
and when i was taking care of this girl who was having fever...
the PD came... >.<
she said she won't ask 敏感问题...
please lah...
what kind of 敏感问题 can you ask?
politics!? -.-''

anyway...
the event ended quite well...
with everybody totally exhausted and happy...
i felt like i am one of them again...
but in reality...
i am a thanks-for-coming-to-support ex-teacher...
*sobs*
ok lah ok lah...
just kidding...
and my kids still missed me!
weet!
see! such appreciative kids!
so lovable! so cute!

after we 搬搬抬抬 back to TVPS, we went to Mad Jack for dinner...
time to really relax and chit chat...
i really had a lot to say...
but we were all over exhausted...
i can't remember what i wanted to say...
other then the big 歹几 that happened on Friday...
and last last week's CHMA...
and so many of my stepped-on-狗屎 incident...
there's still a lot that i wanted to say...
but i just can't recall...
argh...
and i missed my kids...
-hugs people-
good job!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i found this really interesting but sad song...

Mad World by Gary Jules

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowehere, going nowhere
And their rears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dream in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello tacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me,
look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dream in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very very
Mad World
Mad World
Mad World
Mad World

我犯贱！

2008-07-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

嗯嗯……
我犯贱……
都把人家的号码删了，
干嘛还自己无事惹尘埃？
我承认……我犯贱……
是我的错……
刚才还跟QT聊得……赫……
那个投机的说……
一回到家就……
好啦！
我不是承认我犯贱了吗！
就让郁闷来惩罚我吧！

嗯嗯……
我见过鬼了……
我怕黑了……
行了吧？
这天不就是要我低头吗？
不就是要我认栽吗？
我认！我认了就是了！
我不是最乖，最服你的吗！

呵！
等着瞧！
看哪天我又抬头了，
你就得让路了！
对，我不就是个普通人嘛……
耍个普通人就那么好玩吗？
你厉害！
继续吧……
反正我命短，
你也没能玩多久来着……
现在能玩就好好玩哦！
等到我下了地狱就轮不到你管了！

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我只是想要释放释放……
唠叨唠叨……
没想不开……
没想做傻事……
连隔壁邻居的狗都知道我最懂事了，
别担心……
不过……
我是需要多找人聊聊……

总会想念娘家的人……
总觉得对不起夫家的人……

刚才QT问还想不想回娘家……
我那个~~真白目真白目真~~，哎呀！随便啦！
俺曰：“想。”
QT: O_O!!!
QT继续：“你想背叛夫家？家法伺候！”
轮到俺:O_O!!!
QT:"我们会对你更好一点！"
俺那个感动啊！

我……
需要解放……
5555555555555~
飘走！

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
心底OS：咋又上线又下线的？你神经有问题啊！？逃避吗？鄙视你！

again...

2008-07-21T21:54:00.002+08:00

a facade...
its all a facade...

不好……
非常不好……
那种感觉又回来了。
即便是短暂的一段时间，对我工作的影响确实非常大的。
好似没什么进展……
到底是我的问题还是他们的素质真得太差了？

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

那晚……
那晚啊……
我真的应该反省反省一下我这辈子是不是造孽太多了！
如果我这辈子还算是个好人，
那就一定是我上辈子人品不好了！
怎么这样来作弄我啊……

我的视力不是很差的吗？
怎么就在这种关键时刻成了16/16的标准视力呢？
怎么让我认出来呢？

不过……（怀心肝出现中……）
不知道他当时的心情是怎样的呢？
咩哈哈哈！
我就是坏心肝啦！
好啦好啦！
所以我活该！
我认了！
行了不？
我还真是懂得苦中作乐啊！

在我告诉Ellen说我把他的电话删了之后……
她说我好勇敢哦！
不敢当，不敢当。

empty inside...

2008-07-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

gosh...
visiting jingna's blog really left me feeling so very empty inside...
its like...
it'll take me lifetime after lifetime to achieve what she had achieved when she's 16...
and now...
like i've said...
she has flown so far and so high...
this is what it means by “望尘莫及”！

and me?
what have i got?
what have i achieved since birth till now?
what do i have exactly?

i don't know...
somebody tell me?

working hard... or die trying...

2008-07-14T21:32:00.005+08:00

haven seen me for a long time?
yeah~
have been working hard!
clearing my markings...
thinking... and thinking... and thinking...
trying to make myself useful...

but at the same time...
running away from SOME work...

CH Family day is over...
and i got a serious flu from it...
was really really sick... T.T

went to JB last Sat...
when we were at this underpass...
we say 2 girls doing surveys...
and one of them actually grabbed a man and said:
“先生，我不是要打抢！我只是要跟你做个调查！”

ya... the 3 of us almost died laughing there!!!
joke of the day ok!
what a line to start a survey...
maybe we shall try it in SG?
opps...

and hoh...
OMG!
my bro actually carried my stuffs for me...
ok...
me and my bro, older bro...
we are not that close...
or should i say...
not close AT ALL!
i'm too tough a sis...
and he's too cool a bro...
so...
we don't really need help from each other...
when i do...
i can just demand it...
tough right?
so since young...
most of the time...
we hated each other...
and my cousin actually told my bro to carry my stuffs!
my bro dotes on her lah...
she's pretty and tall...
sweet and very un-tough...
a little sister that my bro wants, i think...
then my bro got her a birthday prezzie...
so i seized the chance and grabbed a gift too!
eh! i buy birthday prezzies for him ok!
but none from him to me!
so overall, i'm still a better sis to him than he is a good bro to me!

heh... whatever...
maybe i'm just a teeny weeny bit jealous...
since i never had the feeling of having an older bro protecting me...
so next time...
i shall have a daughter before a son...

tsk tsk....
bad habit...
think too much...
all thanks to this Thinking Comm lah...
>.<

i need more motivations...
it seems like the more i do...
the more i lose...
i don't understand...
maybe...
i'll still apply for a transfer next year...

i'll work hard!
or... die trying...

简单的一天

2008-06-30T23:58:00.002+08:00

今天，QT说我很开心哦~
她没什么别的意思，就觉得我看起来很开心。
我说嗯，下课了嘛！
现在呢，也算是得心应手吧……
2班的小瓜也算乖，虽然有时候吵了点……
至少没什么特别烦心的。
比较费时费事的是一些admin matters吧。

这个星期六是CHS的FAMILY DAY，BAND已经开始忙了。
我真的好久没有画画了。
今天就把一个A4的图照搬，画到了半块2M长的黑布上。
大家的那个惊讶……
没想到老娘那么有画画天份吧！
明年就到CO施展我的天份去！

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

其实这样才对嘛……
做些我能够掌握的好的，
不要好高鹜远，不要不自量力。
我是很脚踏实地的！
只是有些人就太高估我了……
就是要丢些我心有余而力不足的东西给我做，
搞得我好像很爱出风头又没本事一样。
到最后两边不着岸，惨的是自己。

而老天又爱跟我开玩笑，
总是哪壶不开提哪壶！
明明就忙死了，
还丢个炸弹给我，
让我抱又不是，放又不是……
而在我终于懂得怎么放下的时候，
这壶又哔哔做响！
那个烦啊！

算了算了，
我小人不计老天过，
你啊你！
不要再给我出stun了吼！
不要给一点不给一点的，
吊人胃口就那么好玩吗？
去去去！去干你的正经事去！
那些该遭天谴的遭天谴，
那些该幸福美满的幸福美满，
不要来烦我们这些小咔！

missing tvps

2008-06-29T21:01:00.002+08:00

went out with TVPS teachers on Saturday...
then i realised...
no matter how much better it gets in CHS...
i'll still miss TVPS.

tian said its good that i still hang out with them...
yeah... but during conversations...
i'll still feel out of place.

there are matters that i'm not in the position to ask...
or to know...
my voice becomes smaller...
my presence does not matter...
i'm there but i'm always tired...
my problems do not even seem like problems...

its a not-here-nor-there lifestyle again...

======================================

i actually told QT and a new teacher (AN) what happened!
i know. i totally SHOCKED them...
AN said she wants to try too...
no no...
don't even THINK about it...
its too dangerous...

and to end all of it,
i deleted...
while reading 《我是女王》。
but sadly...
heaven is always joking with me...
things always happen when one thinks its over...
always unpredictable.
then again...
i'll put an end to it, again.

我是女王！

2008-06-24T00:44:00.003+08:00

强力推荐！

《我是女王－－那些好女孩不懂的事》
女王著

那些自悲的女孩／女人~
那些类似女王的女孩／女人~
去看看这本书吧！

那些抱怨自己没有妹的男人~
那些成天都在把妹的男人~
去看看这本书吧！

不论是都市女郎，
还是乡村小妹，
都去看看这本书吧！

包你大开眼界，
直点头哦！

===========================

i reached home at like... 12+ midnight...
why?
where did i go?
what was i doing?

T.T

Ans1 To finish my project...

Ans2 To my friend's house...

Ans3 My work... and also staring at my friend's who's working so hard to edit my videos...

Again... thank you Uncle Ben...

*sniff sniff*

WE'VE FINISHED!

yesh!

2008-06-22T15:24:00.002+08:00

박효신 – 화신 (일지매 OST)
朴孝信-花神

해가 저물면 밤이 찾아오듯
就像太阳下山夜晚就来临一样
내 사랑 어김없이 찾아오죠
我的爱情也准时到来了

걸음보다 더 빠른 내 마음이
比脚步更快的我的心
오늘도 그대에게 가죠
今天也走向你

울다 웃다 울다 혼자 그리다가
哭了笑了哭了独自一人思念
붉은 잎에 새긴
刻在红叶上的
눈물로 그대를 지우죠
用眼泪抹掉你

해가 저물면 밤이 찾아오듯
就像太阳下山夜晚就来临一般
내 사랑 어김없이 찾아오죠
我的爱情也准时到来了

걸음보다 더 빠른 내 마음이
比脚步更快的我的心
오늘도그대에게 가죠
今天也走向你

울다 웃다 울다 혼자 그리다가
哭了笑了哭了独自一人思念
붉은 잎에 새긴
刻在红叶上的
눈물로 그대를 지우죠
用眼泪抹掉你

그대 얼굴을 바라볼 때에는
望着你的脸
나도 몰래 그댈 따라 또 웃다가
我也不知不觉跟着你笑

가질 수 없는 꿈인 걸 알기에
知道这是不能实现的梦想
두 눈에 눈물이 흐르죠
所以两眼泪汪汪

=======================

强力推荐韩剧《一枝梅》！
李准基主演！

=======================

知道这是不能实现的……
我也没有两眼泪汪汪……

我要……

戒掉你！

what i have...

2008-06-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

i have laopo who's always so sweet...

i have mehmeh who's always so silly and makes me laugh...

i have friends who are only 萍水相逢 and yet is bia-ing for me to edit my video...

all my 贵人s...

thanks a lot...

PS: thanks a lot Ben... you are ZAI de! i've entrust you with the videos... hehehe!

台湾2

2008-06-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:38 PM):
老公！
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:38 PM):
你终于回来了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:38 PM):
laopo
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:38 PM):
老婆
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:38 PM):
我回来了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:38 PM):
好想你啊
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:38 PM):
我也是！
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:38 PM):
台湾啊
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:38 PM):
怎样？台湾好玩吗？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:39 PM):
是个会让幸福的人更幸福,孤独的人更孤独的地方.
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:39 PM):
嗯嗯
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:40 PM):
那里的白天好灰暗
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:40 PM):
哦？怎么说呢？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:40 PM):
夜晚绚烂,但是虚假
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:40 PM):
还得我忘了看星星
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:40 PM):
那里的building啊
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:41 PM):
都灰灰的
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:41 PM):
哈哈
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:41 PM):
嗯嗯
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:41 PM):
的确
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:41 PM):
可是台湾的美，是相机拍不下来的
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:42 PM):
台湾的表面真的很丑
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:42 PM):
咳
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:43 PM):
在那里，心里总是会空空的
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:43 PM):
哦
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:43 PM):
你跟誰一起去？
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:44 PM):
怎麽好想去得好不開心啊？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:45 PM):
根以前的同学
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:46 PM):
不知道
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:46 PM):
人是会变的
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:46 PM):
而且你也知道
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:46 PM):
我在朋友面前根本不会假装
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:46 PM):
得罪人也难免
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:47 PM):
哦
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:47 PM):
發生了小誤會嗎？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:47 PM):
而且我发现
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:47 PM):
我越来越铁齿了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:48 PM):
也不是误会啦
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:48 PM):
只是我比较粗线条而已
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:49 PM):
哦
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:49 PM):
或許他們不習慣吧
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:50 PM):
而且就向你說的人會變咯
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:50 PM):
嗯嗯
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:50 PM):
我就变了好多
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:50 PM):
是因爲工作后的關係嗎？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:51 PM):
对阿
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:51 PM):
別想那麽多了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:51 PM):
好不习惯
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:51 PM):
因爲你還是你啊
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:51 PM):
我不会做表面功夫
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:51 PM):
我覺得這樣才好呢
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:52 PM):
你知道嗎我班的人太虛爲了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:52 PM):
^=^
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:52 PM):
怎么了？
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:53 PM):
是你的组里的人吗？
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:54 PM):
有幾個
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:54 PM):
但不是穎慧
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:54 PM):
不要跟他们混了
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:54 PM):
我們和好了
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:54 PM):
沒有跟了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:54 PM):
那就好！
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:55 PM):
身边有个要好的朋友很重要
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:55 PM):
恩
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:55 PM):
覺得啊
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:55 PM):
這世上太多恐怖的人了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:55 PM):
可以原谅的就原谅，把误会理清
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:56 PM):
嗯嗯
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:56 PM):
恩
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:56 PM):
所以我已經跟穎慧和好咯
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:56 PM):
覺得有他一個朋友就夠了
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:57 PM):
跟他和好是好事
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (10:58 PM):
可是千万不要认为有一个朋友就够了
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (10:58 PM):
哈哈恩
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (11:02 PM):
不管怎样，现在就尽情的过日子吧~
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (11:03 PM):
oppa 最近心情都不怎麽好噢
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (11:03 PM):
有什麽事情可以email我啊
린린 [ 나의 별 ] says (11:03 PM):
=) 我會在這裡的
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (11:03 PM):
嗯嗯
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (11:03 PM):
真的
호박] 美丽中的那一点点不美丽 says (11:03 PM):
有些事脑子放开了，心放不开

游台湾

2008-06-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

台湾，
不如想象。

台湾的美女不多，
可是台湾的女人都很会打扮。

台湾的帅哥不多，
可是都很注意穿着。

台北市的白天，
不宜拍照，
灰暗得可怜。

台北市的夜晚，
令人眩目，
忘了拍照。

我去的台北，
没有一处空旷。
可怜我，去错了地方。
让我一直想。

高雄，
纯朴得可爱。

高雄，缺。
缺台北的冷淡。
缺城市的现实。
缺繁闹。

高雄，有。
有简单的繁华。
有看不完的海水。
有吃不完的芒果冰。
那个满啊~

后来，
又回到台北。
台北的美，是相机拍不进去的。

第一天觉得台北很像马来西亚。
第一晚觉得台北与新加坡无异。

分别在……
台湾人和新加坡人交友的方式吧……
可能，我在台湾能存活哦！

我想念那个芋圆啊！
我惧怕那个鸡扒啊！

我发现……去一个没有语言障碍的国家对我的钱包很残忍。
我还是会韩国好了。
有一点障碍，又没一点障碍，对我和钱包都好~

哎……又是TM看不懂的意识流。

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

我想。
在台湾每天都想。
幻想着种种的不可能。
不很伤心，就是闷。

怎么远在台湾都会有这种失落，
怎么大家双双对对，我落魄？

回头看看新加坡……
才发现，
为什么落单的人，一箩箩……

该死的。

gg to tw

2008-06-08T18:55:00.002+08:00

i'm going to taiwan tomorrow.

will be back on 17th june...

thanks for all those who's with me during those few days when i'm super vexed...
you Dears are loves~

======================================

are you like this?

are you brave enough to do this?

be restricted and live on...

or

free yourself and die...?

pissed

2008-06-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

ok...
hasnt been blogging...
thats mostly because im slacking and been pissing off by somebody...

hrmm...
maybe i should add an "S" behind that "somebody"...
ROAR!

a man, age 24... acting like a kid!
please...
you are 24 and you have been through NS...
and you are still complaining like a child to the teacher "TEACHER! HE DOESNT WANT TO PLAY WITH ME!"

sobs...
well... too bad!
if people dont want to play with you,
then go find somebody who does!

if you are such a good buddy of his,
then settle him!
why do you have to complain to me!?

and please...
guys...

NOBODY!

NOBODY decides WHEN i am getting a boyfriend...
WHO i am getting as MY boyfriend...
or WHAT KIND of boyfriend i get...

its all NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!
keep your comment/s to yourself...
anyway...
you commented cause you are selfish...
not for the sake of me...

GROW UP!
GET A LIFE!

i cant help it if you feel EMPTY after your break-up with your gf...
especially it over a long period of time!
you are WASTING MY TIME!

if my good intentions are MISTAKEN by you (apparently not, i've been making it CRYSTAL CLEAR that it IMPOSSIBLE between us YEARS AGO)...
then, im ignoring you.

and your uber good buddy who is so very sure that you two will die for each other...
go to each other!
dont come and complain to me!
if you guys are really so good!?
why are you 2 fussing over such a small matter!?

BE A MAN!

25 years of age...
married, divorcing and have a child...
and you said whatever you said is just being selfish...
oh please...
at this age and with such experience...
dont tell me you cant be responsible for your own words!?
if you dont care, why sms and call?
i practice what i preach...
when i say im adopting this "i dont want to know and i dont want to care" policy,
i mean it.
and i hope you mean what you said too...
be a good role model for him.

and you two should really be THANKFUL that you have at least ONE sane and sensible buddy in your group!
it must have been hard on you...
and you were the first to piss me off! haha! ironic...
sorry about that...

so Dears...
this is why i have been so restless and didnt feel like blogging...
i really need to get to Taiwan and get lost over there...

tag replies 25/5/08

2008-05-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

tag replies:

lynn:
LONG TIME NO SEE!
how r u nw?

mimiko:
yeah~
-hugs-
but mimiko nv update blog...
tsk tsk... change to blogger lah...

xingyi:
1 mth is v fast de!
n u haf to bia a lot of tings!
omg~
someone will miss u~
n of coz~ EVERYONE will miss u!
-hugs-
muz jia you ok!

dotter:
OMG!
1st my grand-dotter, and nw my dotter!
-hugs-
nw u see y Umma nv go for it?
coz Umma has all of u Dears!
-hugs-
jia you!

Ellen:
haha~ ya, u told me abt it~
did u take a ride on the japan eye!?
omg!
i cant wait to see e fotos!!!
heh~ enjoy jiu hao lah!
-hugs-
ohya...
omg!
i am sooo in love w 陈楚河 recently!!
he's e guy who acted in Kung Fu Dunk w jay and oso jay's 青花瓷 mv!
nw i'm watch this drama call 命中注定爱上你！
nice! go watch!

holi mood~

2008-05-21T22:17:00.003+08:00

had been very busy lately...
heart, mind, soul and body...
very very busy...

and here...
i would like to thank, especially...
my brothers...

frankly speaking...
i don't like going out with cinderellas...
meaning... people who have curfew...
but i have many friends ( mostly my female Dears to be exact) are cinderellas...
Dears, i still love you so very much, don't worry.
but its my guy Dears who really dedicate time and patience for me...
thanks again...
and i have to say sorry to you guys too...

so...
this song...
which always suits my situation so very much most of the time...
is dedicated to you Dears...

爱我的人和我爱的人 - 游鸿明 -

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

there...

ambrose just broke off with his gf...
and me, his faithful "brother" dedicated time, patience, health, etc to help him recover...
seems like he is taking it well.
and now...
he is doing the same for me...
there maybe ulterior motive...
but he is doing it for me~ ^.^ so thanks!

and KK...
phew... i'll really cry my hearts out ( fine... not literately...) if i'm going to lose a friend like him!
14 years of friendship is no joke!
Dears, you don't know how a good man he is!
he gets mayo for me without me asking ok!

and PH... sexual orientation means nothing to me...
it doesn't change our relationship as friends!
another 14 years... no joke ok!

ya... so many good men... so why did i reject them?
ambrose asked me this...
at the moment...
its because my heart is filled to the brim...
if you want reasons,
i can give you tonnes!

thanks for just staying by my side,
and saying yes to all my willful requests...
being so very meticulous to my needs...
intro friends to me and made them very kpo about my "situation"...

i am blessed!
i am loved!
and i am grateful...
thanks to all my Dears~

放荡不羁

2008-05-19T15:43:00.002+08:00

我……
是个绑不住的女孩……吧？
我……
拿得起放得下……吧？
我……
值得朋友的爱……吧？

我……
真得很野……
彻夜不归……
就为了寻开心……
难道我不开心吗？
开心啊！

我……
谁来绑住我啊？

嗤……怎么那么像沙僧崔始元啊！？

17th may

2008-05-19T15:04:00.003+08:00

as usual...
a lot of things happened...

the concert's great~
but i really wanted to seat IN the hall and watch it...
it's just so ridiculous sneaking into my own boys' concert!
but i still did...
fullstop.

Dears, i'll try to create opportunities for you all to meet up...
but sady... as usual...
i may not be there just like this concert.

saturday night,
watched speed racer with KK,
if you are not the CG kind of person, don't watch it...
for a child, it'll be very entertaining though.

sunday~
sleep the whole day...
went out in the evening for accuracy of death with Ambrose, Ben and Eric...
sweet show...
like the song by Kaue Fujiki, Sunny Day.

and the classic...

"Life is nothing special, but it is important. Just like the Sun being up in the sky is nothing special, but it is important."

but at first, the Grim Reaper doesn't understand that, becuase he has never seen a clear blue sky... and then... ya...

watched movie, played pool, that's when Eric came...
dotz... Eric and his 5000sgd que set...
fine... he's got skills... <.>
i'll beat you someday!
then i suggested KTV...
as usual...
this time, we K-ed till 6AM...
had breakfast...
haiz... my cousin's a Cinderella...
shouldn't bring her out next time...
took a train home...

super looking forward to a POOL marathon during te holis!
MUAHAHAHAHA!

Dears~
i love you peeps so much~
-hugs-

============================================

Ellen! i missed you~
a lot a lot!
how's it in japan?

Elen's right...
i shouldbe very very glad...
and I AM!
its kind of like recieving my results for friendship...
只要我肯开口，大家就都来了！
感谢！开心！
真的，谢谢你们！
-大爱-+-抱抱-

CHS Music Takes Flight UPDATE*

2008-05-12T23:44:00.007+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL MY DEARS

WHO LOVE ME SO DEAR~

MUSIC TAKES FLIGHT UPDATE!

Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date: 17th May 2008
Day: Saturday
Time: PLEASE REACH BEFORE 7.O0PM
Look out for: AMBER! ME! I! MYSELF! and my CUTE BOYS! AND SECONDARY BOYS!

Coming list:

All who Loves Eunhyuk and ME! total 8.
Melt, FangFang, WT, XMei, Cher, Ryn , Shin Juju , MELLY!

Friends total 4.
Ah Q & BF and 2 friends

STP total 3.
Mic, Mimiko, QL

RVPS
17 kids.

TVPS total 2.
Matthew
Tian

Pri Sch Dears total 5.
Kai Khin
Chit Yang + Yaling
Peng Hong + Friend

total: 39 Dears~

-LOVE ALL OF U!-

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR "YESH YESH YESH! I WANT TO GO!"
so ONZ sia!

-HUGS-

so for those who's names are here, see you Dears on 17th May, Saturday!

反悔的话，朋友就做到今天咯！

PS: Tix will be given to you on Saturday, so please Please PLEASE be there earlier to get the tix from me and of course to give me a big BIG HUG!

few days before...

2008-05-12T22:40:00.004+08:00

hrmm...
so what's Amber been busy with last few days?

erm...

busy getting herself out of a deep stinky pile of shit...
and jumping into another deep stinky pile of shit...
chim?
call me, or maybe when we meet, my Dears, and i'll tel you...
if you want to listen that is...

random:

i think this was taken on Thursday...
the 3 siao teachers...
saw the paper clip on our hair?
MUAHAHAHA!

hoho!
this is ME and KAI!
saw my 拽帅 face and my tie?
the tie was given to me by my CMI trainee...
heh~ he gave Andrew puzzle cubes and Kai wet tissues in cans!
so... mine is the best... from him... THANKS!
and we were wearing the T that we bought together from a sale! weeh!

then i went to meet Xmei, Melt, Meh, Alice dotter, JuJu and Van...
Xingyi!! your concert is KIANG de!
hahaha~ omg...
must hold a private concert with us ok!
XINGYI's solo concert!
their voices are like...
OMG! OVERWHELMING!
can knock you out on the spot ok!
and i never know that a choir's concert can have so many 花样！
its totally FUN!
reminded me of my choir days...
loved watching the facial expressions of the choristers!
i think this is the part that really brought me back to my days as a chorister...
when i kept reminding my members to smile and sway on stage...
but JC-ers are just different...
those days of tears and joy...
haiz...
anyway~
me and Meh and Xmei kept laughing lah...
ok ok... blame me...
i kept making comments thats like... erm... funny?
ya... my bad...
there's this 6 guys who sang really well...
can even beat box... ZAI!
they started what i thought was "MEH MEH MEH"...
then i told Meh it was a song dedicated to her...
after the concert, Xingyi told us it was "MAN MAN MAN" instead of "MEH MEH MEH"！
hahaha! PENGZ!
there's the guy call Jerry, in green... who sang solo...
voice wasn't that great when he was singing erm... "Right Here Waiting"? i forgot the first song...
but when they sang "Angel" + facial expressions... WAAAH! ZAI!! DAMN ZAI!!!
the whole concert was AUDIO + VISUAL EXCITEMENT!
ohya... then we commented that they can change really fast...
hohoho!

and Hwa Chong has this funny culture of giving performers fruits and vegetables...
Dears... maybe we should practice that?
i'll like DURIAN, WATER APPLE AND CHERRIES?
hehehee!

concert ended...
we shouted for her...
OPPS!
CHEERIOS XINGYI!

ended up at RC's Mos...
on our way...
i saw...

TADA!

when i reached home...
i think it's already Saturday...
went to school...

YESH! SCHOOL! on a SATURDAY!
Qiting was there...
did some work and she talked to me about the new pile of shit that me, Kai and her are going to jump into...
ok... sometimes... fortune-telling is really very zun wan you know...
for me...
oppotunities are ALWAYS around...
ALWAYS!!!
but... i feel that i lack the abilities...
thats why i got myself out of GEP...
anyway~
the 3 of us are into it now...
so... we'll work hard for it!
its... REVOLUTION!

got bangsay by Mimiko...
so i had to find my own entertainment...
i smsed Clem...
but he replied damn late...
sorry brother...
if Amrose brother didn't reply before you did,
you may still have a chance...
My Condolences to Clem...
brother's gram passed away...
and sorry that i can't accompany you to the chalet...

so Amber, who's forever happy and carefree went to have fun with Ambrose and friends!
had Korean BBQ dinner with Eric and Ben and yes, Ambrose, the disaster kid!
hehehe!
Eric and Ben call him MOMO... racist joke... better not say...
we ordered ALOT...
Eric paid... ALOT too...
watched IRON MAN!
great show...
waiting for PART2! heh!
well at first they wanted to go home and pa game...
but when i got out of e washroom...
they asked me if i want to go KTV or POOL, my choice...
OMG! HOW CAN I REJECT ~~THEM~~ KTV OR POOL!?
yeah... KTV... heh!
sang till 4.30AM ok!
>.< and we went to have breakfast without Ambrose...
stayed at the MRT station until like... 6.33AM for the first train...
went home... on SUNDAY morning...
slept till 6PM...
ZAI leh?
see lah...
which man can tahan such KIANG Amber, you tell me?

heh~ HAPPY!

AH DEAR... SHIT!

2008-05-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

no no no no no...
this is NOT happening...
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
THIS IS DEFINITELY NOT HAPPENING!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

ROAR!
WHO SAID HE'S NOT COMING BACK!?
WHO!?
WHO SAID HE'S DEFINITELY NOT COMING BACK!
AND WHY TODAY!?
OMG!
WHY!?

T.T

FYI: ah dear ( no Dears, not any one of you Dears, there's PUN intended ) aka Confucius aka TKH, has been posted back to CHS...

WHY!?

he'll fucking die here!
i am barely clinging on!
how can he survive!?

bad news: i really wonder who will be assigned as his buddy... better NOT be me!

good news: he still needs to serve his NS... IF so, he will only be back in 2 years time...

Dears, TWO YEAR LATER, I WON'T BE IN CHS ANYMORE! WOOT!

QT asked then where will i be...
i was like \@O@/ oh shit...
so i said: wa ai ke ta chek lah~ ( i want to go study lah in hokkien)

heh~ sadded leh!
downest day!

嘴贱两姐妹

2008-05-06T22:55:00.003+08:00

以下是嘴贱两姐妹（Amblur + WT）的杰作……

quote from WT's blog:

go amblur blog, you can see her with her whole list of 简单是 .....

so i was msning with her, and we crap alot leh!!

blue me, red amber

简单是在韩国第一次看到傻猴子而开心得要死的时候
简单是在韩国一直看到傻猴子而没有感觉了的时候
简单是在韩国一直看到傻猴子而真的觉得他很傻的时候
简单是　在韩国一而再再而三看到CY而麻木的时候
简单是　没看到lina而觉得遗憾的时候
简单是　移情别恋的时候
简单是在inkigayo看到很多爱人的时候
简单是　在inki表演无聊而猛看hc的时候
简单是　等了一整天就为了看爱人的时候！
简单是无聊的时候可以找嘴贱两姐妹哈拉！(CLASSIC!)

and we decide to change to TIANTIAN shi...

甜甜是。。。嘴贱两姐妹最喜欢那来批评的人
甜甜是　嘴贱两姐妹最重要的娱乐提供者……之一！
甜甜是　大家一看到就会闪的不见人影的原因
甜甜是　连上线都会让人要TAKE COVER!
甜甜是　简单来说。。。一个魔鬼
甜甜是　简单来说……一个骗子！
甜甜是　一个患有幻想症的病人。。。

嘴贱两姐妹 for ur info, is a new name for me and amber ok.lol

and the classic is:

Amber: 移情别恋是　虽然爱上很多人　但是从没离开过GACKT!

WT: 移情别恋是　虽然爱上很多人　但是从没离开过CHAEYEON!

最后，WT选了题目《幸福》。
大家去看看吧！

WT终于写了篇人模人样的文了。
撒花！
姐妹要常在一起CRAP才不会便秘哦！
多排毒对身体好啊！

PS:WT姐妹，注意错别字……

简单

2008-05-05T23:17:00.003+08:00

简单

简单是
小时候因肚子饿而哇哇大哭。

简单是
当时铅笔盒里只有铅笔和橡皮擦。

简单是
与朋友吵架不会由一句“I don't friend you already”而结束。

简单是
遇到伤心的事大哭一场就没事。

简单是
放学后穿着校服在校外手牵手的幸福。

简单是
在考试之前拼了命的K书或一切不顾。

简单是
在O Level之后的狂欢不想以后。

简单是
在拿到成绩后欢喜一场或空一场。

简单是
有或没有。

简单是
男或女。

简单是
黑或白。

简单是
生或死。

长大后，一切都不简单了。
我不简单。

简单真是美。

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这篇是今天在做invigilation的时候想出来的。
走来走去，看到学生们的铅笔盒里包罗万象，可是不是每一样都是必要的。
然后经过一个小男孩的桌子，他的铅笔盒很大，但是里面只有像皮擦、铅笔刨和很多只削得尖尖的铅笔。
这小孩的爸妈真不简单。
这就是简单。

现在的我们，
又有谁，还是那么简单的呢？

现在，我们的简单又是什么？

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tag replies:

Dotter:
heh~ i tink June shld be ok for most of us bah...
ur Umma always noes how to enjoy good food de lah~
heh~ -hugs-

Ryn:
ya... T.T we'll juz haf to wait till 17th May le...
-hugs-

WT:
touch lah... sibei touch loh...
so touch tt i'll gif u nothing under the sun except TIAN ok!
hahahahah!
ya... really need to plan liao...
n muz plan WELL!
and FOLLOW! heh~ heh~ heh~
-hugs-

谈　安全感

2008-05-04T23:47:00.002+08:00

谈　“安全感”

记得中四那年，
心里测验测出我是非常需要安全感的人。
安全感分很多种。

－父母对自己的看重
－朋友对自己的看重
－学弟妹对自己的看重
－经济上的自由
等……

中学时真不懂事……
有没有都不知道。

到了NIE，第一次有朋友告诉我，
有我在的地方就觉得有安全感。
我很困惑。
因为我不觉得我有能力给人安全感。
对，是Alanis那件事的阴影。
我不想再有人像她一样依赖我，
为了留住我向我撒谎。

陆陆续续……
越来越多人说在我身边觉得很安全……
嗯，那你们就呆着吧……
觉得舒服，就呆着吧。
可是，不要呆太久，太近，太习惯了。
有一天，我会离开；
有一天，你要离开，
不习惯了，怎么办？
习惯可是人的第二个神啊！

安全感……
我可以给姐妹们安全感。
兄弟们，
只要你们乖乖的，我也可以给你们安全感。
可是，男朋友……很难吧。

我“兄弟姐妹”出了名的多。
出去玩也是出了名的晚回家。
说到晚，我是出了名的玩得起。
聊天，我也是出了名的谈得来。

那些被我拒绝过的兄弟啊，
问问自己，
你可以接受自己的女友有很多好兄弟吗？你信吗？
你可以接受自己的女友夜归吗？不是一两点，是四五点！
你可以接受自己的女友是兄弟和女友分手的原因之一吗？
可以接受！
然后呢？
觉得很不安全吧？
缺乏信任吧？

my brothers,
不要再钻牛角尖，问为什么不给你机会……
给了，你会伤得更痛。
现在这样，不是很好吗？

我这条鱼很难钓的，去钓另一条吧……

可笑的是，
现在似乎连累了兄弟和他GF了。
Ambrose说，他约我吃芒果冰的那晚，
他的女友哭了。
他本来约了Amanda吃芒果冰，
可是Amanda没空，所以就来问我。
吃完后他告诉Amanda，Amanda就哭了。

也不能怪她啦。
她本来就很不安了，
还怀疑我喜欢他(正好相反-.-'')……
我还不断提醒Ambrose要坦白告诉Amanda出去时跟谁在一起。
哎……谁知道……

看吧……
我很乖哦！
真的很乖哦！
只要兄弟有了女友，我就不主动约他们出去了！
Ambrose也同意的！
可是怎么小心翼翼，这类的事还是发生了。

我啊，
真的过不了自己那一关啊。

yesterday n today

2008-05-04T21:51:00.008+08:00

okie~
lets briefly see what ahma did on Saturday and Sunday~

before the movie, we ate at Billy Bombers look-alike...
VooBBit... thats my USA Root Beer Float... -.-''

Ambrose's Seafood whatever whatever...

my Cheese Mushroom Burger~

i'm worried for VooBBit...
the pastry just collapsed... and you might fall in too...

pool after the movie...
Ambrose: taiko counted?
Me: of course!
so desune! his "taiko counted" means 9 balls...

Me: REDO!

Ambrose: is this correct?
well... sadly no...

TADA! this... is correct...
i zai ok!
won the first round...
then keep 放水ing...
Bro happy i happy lah~
and my right hand is super on form!
every shot by my right hand is straight into the pocket!
my left hand did a 1 shot 3 pockets! but 1 of the 3 is the erm.. heh...
thanks bro... Ambrose's treat! heh!

walked around to look for a place to la kopi...
but all of the TCCs are closed or closing...
so...

ICE CREAM!
durian's still the best...
Ambrose chose butterscotch... too sweet...
hazelnut... wrong choice... thought it'll taste like hazelnut chocs...

then went to his army cohesion party....
got QUESTIONED... like... are you his GF?
typical... who cares?
heh... sip sip water for Amber~
reached home at 3AM+

and today! Sunday~

i think its my PMS...
grumpy...
called Clem twice and i just walked to Yoshinoya and bought my food...
i very good already ok!
he said he's left with 8 bucks and i chose such a wallet friendly restaurant!
ROAR!
Clem is so high about my Tiger tote bag...
heh~ 帅 leh~
of course lah! Amber leh!

guess where we went after bruncher (breakfast+lunch+dinner)?
C.O.L.D. S.T.O.R.A.G.E.
and where did i end up?
the CHOCOLATE SECTION!
muahahahaha!
new discovery!

a new brand of toy-in-the-egg chocolate...
and the name is...

OZMO... bleah... didn't buy it...

~~loitered~~ walked around...
tok kok... Clem sing song...
i kept saying that i want to go home...
really tired and bored...
but... i always have time to PA ARCADE!
and kids nowadays are really zai de loh...

cute kids... shooting game... no problem...
but then... the game is HOUSE OF THE DEAD 4!
zai leh!
and i realised most of the people in Woodlands playing shooting games are girls!
ZAI LEH!

for the sake of bored Clem...
i broke my rule of not eating after 8PM...
eat what?
of so much food... MC!

and look at what Clem gave me?

cute watery eyes...

happy mouth~

small body...

a mountain of hair...

its~

BENKO!

heh~

Clem with... Pink... KimChi Pink...
Brother... Song boh?
Clem: Sooong...

hahaha!
why KimChi? long story... next time ok~

-hugs-

ambrose's bad day...

2008-05-04T03:10:00.002+08:00

yap...
another late nights out till 3AM+...

wanted to do marking...
but dear Ambrose got BGR problem...
so his bro, ME must help rite?
of course!

so...
pei him go some army cohesion party thingy...
he can't stand the air-con and we went home...

cheer up dude...
its not the end of your world...
its just the end of a relationship...
and well...
it hasn't really end yet...

i may not be very free...
but i'll always have time to cheer my bros up!
you may be boring...
and most of the time...
i don't really understand what you are trying to say...
but ya...
i'll act like i understand and give you an i-understand-what-you-mean answer...
pool, lim kopi and movie sessions are always welcome!
so just give me a call!

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heh...
i have been more and more comical nowadays...
especially my SHOCKED expression...
so very cartoon...
be it in school or outside...
i show all my feelings on my face!
so is it good or bad?

well... my Dears, i have the full 50 tix for my school's concert...
so see you on 17th May!
muacks and hugs!

friday & sat

2008-05-03T15:29:00.002+08:00

Tag replies:

Ellen:
YESH! and we found a good place to chill!
ohya! VW!
http://www.viviennewestwood.com/flash.php
u go to this webby, then you click on WHERE TO BUY.

Mimiko:
of course!
i may be frustrated or angry with you at times...
but how many of my Dears can let me scream vulgarities at them on the phone at 10PM and do the same back to me?
and then we laugh over it?
L.O.V.E. Y.O.U.

WT:
aiya...
you know you how good how good de lah...
you so good already...
how i dare to publicise you in my blog!?
skally you go Korea with somebirdie else how?
skally tian see you how good how pro how you met CY,
then she go and PM you tell you she want go Korea with you leh!
then i will sad de leh!
hohoho!
love you also lah...
another crapping kaki!
must call and crap often leh!
and plan for THE TRIP!

Dotter:
nope...
in fact... Umma's hair is getting longer that i don't know what to do with it!
was thinking of dying it bright red or orange red in June,
then blue of purple in Dec...
yap... was thinking of going to K in June!!!
Umma has holis!!
-hugs-

and oh me mama!
i got my first 2 pieces of ONITSUKA TIGER!!!
they are BAGS!
photos later...
had our usual unusual sms convo with Clem...
heh~ kim chi and lap cheong~

going to pool and movie with Ambrose...
i think i can guess about what happened...
yeah bro... you found the right person to cheer you up!
but erm...
personal cue... yes or no doesn't make a diff lah...

labour day

2008-05-01T18:14:00.002+08:00

labour day... is for labourers like me...

woke up at 12+ with my expected non-alcoholic hangover...
nd went online!
chatted with long lost De Hong then went to KTV with him...
YESH! AGAIN!
my Mayday high again...
he owe me big time!
treated me Pizza Hut and KTV~
woot!
thanks bro!
still the same 嘴花花.
开口闭口就说自己是好男人。

5各大男孩凑在一起，就唱些emo的歌。
真的是受不了……
跟我对比当然大啦！
我一直在唱五月天很high的歌耶！

好累……还在宿醉中……

=============================

to ALL my Dears which includes everybody, esp WT!

I LOVE ALL OF YOU!

KTV!

2008-05-01T12:30:00.002+08:00

Wednesday to Tursday~

went home after marking...
chiong to meet up with Ellen...
cause we were going to LIM TEH!
very 有情调 hoh~

yah...
Ellen, Matt and me~
they makred compo and i talk kok...

and hoh!
the waitress skipped me when she let them smell the tea leaves!
ROAR!
then i suggested to go KTV!
i very gian go KTV to K Mayday songs!!!
even since that concert loh!

Tea Chapter is very near to Tea Lovers,
but Matt suggested Shenton Way,
so we went to Shenton Way, but Matt got lost...
so kind Ellen and Amber did not complain or rant but just enjoyed the scenery while Matt was busy finding his way...
when we reached Shenton Way, the carpark was FULL!
so we looped back to Tea Lovers~
hahaha!
then we needed to wait till 12AM for a room...
so we found a very nice place to chill~ Global Sounds!

nice ambience~

Ah Bei Matt and Ellen~

VooBBit on the teapot~

and ME~

then we went back to Tea Lovers and K all the Mayday songs that i know...
i very pro le!
after hearing some from the concert for the first time...
i can sing already!!!
hohoho!

everytime after our rock songs...
Matt will sing some emo songs...
then we high, he low, high then low high then low... -.-'''
SHIOK!

and now...
me and my non-alcohoic hangover...

===========================================

random

Me in Matt's car after Mayday concert

Tuesday, one of the dish that i ordered @ Sakae,
was having lunch with Janet and Kai...
and Janet paid the bill!
-hugs-

Wednesday's a big day for Kai! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
from right: Carol, Kai, Janet and me~

Pretty and delicious cupcakes from Janet to Kai~
and Kai gave me one! -hugs-

=================================================

ohya...

GOOD NEWS MY DEARS!

YOUR DEAR AMBER IS OUT OF GEP!

CLAP! CLAP! CLAP!

long chat with En Feng...

2008-04-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

I had a very very long chat with my colleague just now...

she is good de! don't doubt her.
she called from 8PM and put down the phone at about 9.30PM...

why? what's so serious or urgent?

ME!

yesh~ its me~
she thought i took MC today again...
so she called to ask how i am...
but i took mc last thursday, not today...

its ok...
she is actually 44 this year...
but she don't look like it at all!
i think for her, its really young at heart.
and also pure at heart.
she's a buddhist, and she has a heart as big as the ocean...
she told me about herself, how she tided over...
how many of the teachers fought to 站稳脚步 here...
many many many stuffs...

i know...
i am thankful.
不管路途多崎岖，多遥远，我从来没有后悔过走这条路。
i have never regretted taking this path.

thanks a lot, Ong Hong...
even though you may not (or definitely not) see this post.
but really, thanks a lot.

and to my Dears:

Melty -
i know you feel lost,
you don't know what to do,
and we don't know how to help either,
but if you think we can help,
just tell us. or me.

Meh -
Meh must make Grand Blog Comeback ASAP ah!
fuxiaozhang is looking forward to it!

XinMei -
aiyo... you and your "Q XinMei is falling down" disease ah...
must get it cure ASAP hoh...
if not how to train Frisbee!?

Xingyi -
your BIG DAY is very near!
FIGHTING!

Alice -
dotter must have regular sleeping habits,
and also regular eating habits,
so that you'll not feel so tired...

recovering~

2008-04-28T23:36:00.003+08:00

我真是快恢复的B型啊！
昨天还精神不稳定……
今天……就好多了。

there's accomplishments today!
i marked! quite a lot...
met up with Xmei, my dear grand-dotter~
bought BB cream to pacify my mother... ya... quarreled with her yesterday...
and went running!

i've been trying very hard to regulate my life...
its really difficult...
my Dears know me...
i don't have much habit...
so trying to keep a habit is not an easy task for me...

we'll see how it goes then~

====================================================

Clem说：就是美的东西才来得快，去得也快。

对啊……
我五月天的high已经快要殆尽了……

回忆越美越可怕
越挣扎眼泪越是要落下

对啊……
多甜……多美……多可怕……

多少年前……我已经学会了不后悔……
多少年前……我比别人先学会拒绝……
多少年前……我已经铁石了我心肠……

但现在想起……讲起……嘴角还是会上扬……

以我为主的戏里……
印证不断地重复……
重复不断的印证……

“想要的永远得不到，不想要的往往会发生”

但我还是相信要勇敢去爱……
因为……

原来世上真的有圣诞老人
会把爱的奇迹给勇敢的人

因为……

下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都是为你

因为……

只因我为爱而生
只因为我为爱而生

因为……

只要你爱我一切都没问题
只要你爱我一切都没问题

我……是个极端的家伙……
我……是个狂妄的家伙……
我……是个倔强的家伙……
我……是个坚强的家伙……
我……是个矛盾的家伙……

我是脆弱的……

可是我相信……

当我和世界不一样
那就让我不一样

如果……
全世界都否定我……
只要一个人给我赞同……
我就有坚持下去的力量……

我……就是如此固执……如此倔强……如此狂妄……

但是……
我的Dears啊……
你们又怎么会让全世界否定我呢？

你们……总是如此的保护我……
要是有一天……
这层保护膜慢慢脱落……
要是有一天……
要我用自己的免疫力生存下去……
要是有这么的一天……

你们会让这一天来临吗？
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我期待……
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5月17。

thoughts of giving up...

2008-04-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

the place that i'm in now...
is a place that will either...

make me...
or...
break me...

and i am quite sure that i am breaking apart already...

好想像Mic一样，
有条件和勇气去递上辞呈。

当时看到Mic说想辞掉工作去做个waitress，
自己完全吓了一跳！
读了4年的书，就为了做个WAITRESS!?

现在想想，
为什么不行？
至少工作量和工钱成正比啊！

i'm procrastinating...
i don't feel like marking...
i feel sick of books...
i missed my old life as a student...
and i can't grow out of it.

i don't know why a BT like me is involved in so many things...

i'm afraid i'll become like LM...
maybe i should really go to a psychiatrist...
maybe i should go for a thorough checkup...
or maybe i am already insane but i have no idea about it...

there are things...
that i have to leave it in my heart and not tell anybody...
cause it will really freak EVERYBODY out...
and i mean it...

i feel so tired...
i kind of wish that i fail my confirmation and MOE will send me back to NIE for another TP.
but Kai and Janet said if i can pass my TP, its already CONFIRMED!
damn... of so many places... HERE! WHY!?
前世造的孽吗？
前世我负了谁了我！？
还是我害了谁了？
难道我杀人放火？
那怎么能让我这辈子投胎做人呢？

我又在怨天尤人了，
又在自怨自艾了。
这些坏习惯什么时候才会改啊！？

前途无亮啊!
我看不到光明。
我的人生越来越黯淡了。
成天想着工作，连写作的时间都没有了。
我那个累……
为什么Matt有时间给人补习？
有时间去茶馆？
而我呢？
连改书的时间都没有！
我的人生到底怎么了？
怎么会那么糟！？

WT说得对，
我人品有问题！
我头脑有问题！
我心智有问题！
我身体有问题！
我需要看医生！
而且是心理医生！
谁给我介绍介绍，好不？
在我做出傻事之前。

Mayday Down To Earth World Tour 2008

2008-04-27T10:21:00.005+08:00

OMFG!

opps...

it was too great... i have to use this kind of language to expression myself...

the concert started at 8.15PM and ended at 11.30PM with i don't know if its called an encore..

it started with a short clip, in year 2057 (ok, i cant remember numbers well, so i think its 2057...) there's a kind of disease call "Black Eye Disease", no, not the kena punch in the eye kind of disease... if you dio then your whole eye ball will become black, slowly spreads to your whole body and then you'll turn to dust.

the plot, the storyline, the costume, machiam some RE movie! i like~

the start of the concert wasn't very impressive... (Gackt had HORSES!)
there was 1 soldier that dropped down from the top of the building and started "shooting", in the clip, they are trying to eliminate the survivers... killed a young girl in the clip, then Ashin was furious and his eye balls turned black and blew up everything else...

stood up during the first song...
i think the first song was 抓狂.
Uncle Matt and Ellen really have this 矜持 you know!
they sat down and wave their light sticks when i was headbanging and jumping up and down...
ohya!
SORRY that i spoilt TWO battery operated light sticks...
sorry Uncle Matt that i stepped on your foot several times, which caused you to step on some don't know who's foot.
Singapore is actually their first stop for their Down To Earth World Tour 2008.
the stadium was FULL!
all the light sticks~ BEAUTIFUL!
i'm not the kind of die-hard Mayday fan...
its the atmosphere, the high-ness that i wanted from the concert~
rock and rock and more rock music!
but sadly...
i couldn't take my mind off my work and something else...
so... i yawned at some HIGH points...
opps! ok lah... i was heart, mind, soul and physically tired...

那些歌词……好些我没听过的歌……
印象好深刻……

[一千个世纪]

当时地球还年轻
我们诞生荒凉大海里
演化到了寒武纪
我们长出脊椎和勇气
某天我们开始踩出脚印
学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心
啊啊我要和你
一起走过一千个世纪
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都为你

当时你我都野性
我们学会用火和穴居
后来帝国正崛起
我们战乱之中更相依
某天我们突然回忆过去
我们只是两段平凡基因
却爱的很美丽
啊啊我要和你
一起走过一千个世纪
下一个我也许是人或蚂蚁
每次诞生我都要与你相遇
每次轮回都是为你

啊啊我要和你
一起活过一千个世纪
每次诞生都只有一个意义
就是和你在一起

在一起

直到文明又毁灭
一千世纪后的第一天
伊甸园里肩并肩
我们笑看太阳也熄灭

My Dears, especially those who are miserably in love to the state that you have almost forgotten your friends...
don't you feel that this sums up the whole story of you and him/her?

there's many more songs...
i'll get from Ellen to burn... hohoho!
and KTV at her house!

整场演唱会……是感动的，是震撼的，是感叹的！
我是个很language的人，
每一首歌的歌词都感动了我，
我也很music，
石头、怪兽的吉他，玛莎的贝斯，阿信的嗓音，还有我最喜欢，最龟毛的冠佑的鼓声，震动了场地，震撼了我……
solo solo solo!

知足，我知道。
不知从几何时，我已经完全了解什么是“知足”了。
站在高高的座位上，5个是那么的小，手伸出来了，可是我又握不到。
没关系，至少那一刻，我见证到了。
至少那一刻，我活着，呼吸着，看着听着他们的演唱会。
我就满足了。

突然想告诉我的Dears们，尤其是那些比我小的Dears们……

我们这些人类啊！
经过那么长的时间进化……
我们长出脊椎和勇气
某天我们开始踩出脚印
学会双手拥抱学会爱情
长出人类的心

是为了什么呢？
是为了爱啊！
为了追求自己爱的东西，
自己爱的人！
只因我为爱而生！
不要再胆怯了！
世上容不下胆怯的人啊！

哇！我怎么讲得出那么有人性的话啊！

到最后，演唱会似有若无的Encore又high high的结束了。
Matt已经CMI了，我和Ellen还在Stadium里买tour goods。
嗬嗬！Dears们17日那天就会看到我买的衣服咯！

这次的演唱会是个美好的开始，所以散场后没有什么空虚的感觉。
不像上次Beyond最后一场，空虚到爆！
我跟Ellen说，要使每个礼拜都去看一场rock/五月天concert，那一个月一定瘦5KG! Ellen点点头，说钱包也会瘦啊……对哦！

本来想去新海山碰碰运气的，可是Matt不会去，
也累到不能送我们回家了，就去了AMK公园的麦记。
差不多12点到那里吧……
我跟Ellen聊到差不多3点才回家哦！

咩哈哈哈哈！
各位小孩，羡慕吧？
这种自由是你们等个十年八年才会有的！
你Ahma我小四就自己拿钥匙，中一就在死党家过夜咯！

我的Dears，我爱你们啊！
胆怯的混球们都滚一边去吧！
不要来骚扰我跟我的Dears!

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random:

Friday @ Kyonichi with QL and Mic~
the lights are actually reflections...

my latest feitish... voodoo rabbit!

Saturday morning in SCHOOL!
had Mc breakfast and found the freshmilk packaging rather cute...

end~

PO

2008-04-26T14:33:00.002+08:00

刚才那个PO是在学校职员室里打的，
我现在还在这里。

就……心有旁骛吧。

死clem，明知道我无聊还出去不陪我。
不过也算了，有他在我的书真的不用改了。

刚才用我和clem的名字和八字算了算前世今生，
我们俩啊……
什么都不是，萍水相逢，就跟我吵嘴一定输我的那个。
今世也是如此啊！
只是感情深了点。
不错，有进展~嗬嗬！
clem，你认命吧！咩哈哈哈哈！

那个小混球，
前天跟我哈啦了几句，太阳打北边出来了！？
就知道没好事。
原来要我帮他下歌。
昨晚帮他下到了，连个谢谢都没说。混球！

今晚要跟ELLEN和Mat去看五月天演唱会！
很兴奋啊！
可是身心好累啊！

为什么我不在TVPS?
或者是JSPS?

怨天尤人-ing...
自怨自艾-ing...
烦！

讲真的，
我对5月17不是很期待。
Dears都来了，可是没什么时间陪你们。
谢幕后我还要陪小瓜回学校的。
咋办？

Dears,我爱你们！
-切腹自刭-

finally... an update~

2008-04-26T11:21:00.002+08:00

heh~
finally... i can update my blog...
i couldn't do an update due to the previous post of MTF promotion.
then i asked Idiot WT for suggestion.
she said i can put it in the template,
i said i've thought of it, not feasible, the right side of my blog is just too small.
then Idiot WT suggested to make it into a banner.
i've thought of that too~
heh heh~ are you thinking what i'm thinking?

OF CAUSE ASK WT DO LAH!

then Idiot WT told me to make it using LOW CLAK PAINT programme, just like... MY SON!

dotz...

and of why IDIOT WT is called IDIOT WT, i promised her not to say or blog about it...
so... heh~

thats when the jokes came out...
we've been tok-koking for quite some time last night!
machiam we went back to the days when we were in KOREA!
hahahaha!

Mimiko said it's good to chat with me on phone during the night...
she'll have very quality slumber, cause she's exhausted from all the laughter...

argh!
i can't wait for the TAIWAN trip!
i can't wait for the KOREA trip!
roar!

met up with Mic and QL to pay hotel fees~
then we went to the long awaited Kyonichi to have ramen...
yes... Jap food... AGAIN!
i know i know...
i'm getting a little sick of Jap food myself...
but friends mah~
with friends around...
even the worst food will taste good!
as usual, we continue to tok-koking...

we were so very bery sick of our job...
we were like...
"ya! 其实进去蹲也不错！"
for those who are not Chinese inclined, it means going to jail is not a bad idea...
we are fed,
we don't have to worry about what to wear,
we don't have to worry about the bond,
we don't have to worry about "climbing",
we don't have to worry about students grades or bonuses,
we don't have Ps, VPs or HODs chasing after us...
and... we don't have to write EPMS!

hohoho~
in exchange of freedom...
maybe its worth it...

haha~ what are we thinking!?

and i think i can confirm that Mic's taking the chance.

if you ask me if i'm ok,
i can frankly tell you...
NO.
y?
cause CHS is really pushing me off the cliff.

and ohya!
guess who i saw online yesternight!?
DUPER TIAN!
KALAVULEH!
i was so SHOCKED!
then i worry for my Dears' safety and changed my nick to "OMFG! SISTERS TAKE COVER!"
hohoho!
then when she went offline...
i changed to "Sisters, its safe now."

see! i so good! protect you all leh~
-hugs-
then Idiot WT kept LOL-ing when i told her that...
and she went to dig up her blogs...
and we LOL all over again...
haiz...
without her ah...
our life no source of entertainment leh!

last night,
was suppose to go watch movie with Mimiko,
which made her quarreled with her mum.

Mimiko, nehmind lah~
midnight shows only mah~
we'll wait till you get better~
its only 20+ more days to go~
CHEERIOS!
when you are really well and kicking,
i treat you kinder surprise ok!
-hugs-

Music Takes Flight Concert May 17th 08

2008-04-23T22:05:00.016+08:00

ATTENTION TO ALL MY DEARS

WHO LOVE ME SO DEAR~

your FuXiaoZhang / AhMa / LaoGong / Amblur / Dearie Ambery etc etc 's band boys are putting up a performance very very soon! We'll be "guest star" performing with the secondary school side~

MUSIC TAKES FLIGHT

ORDERS CLOSED

Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date: 17th May 2008
Day: Saturday
Time: 7.30PM
Look out for: AMBER! ME! I! MYSELF! and my CUTE BOYS!
Tix selling at 10SGD each! free sitting!

my Dears~ its going to be good!
come down and see ME! and my boys~ hohoho!

Coming list: Melt, FangFang, WT, XMei, Cher, Ryn, Ah Q & BF, Mic, Mimiko, QL

-LOVE ALL OF U!-

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR "YESH YESH YESH! I WANT TO GO!"

according to my student, he only has limited tix, so i think i have to stop at 10+1.
but if some of you Dears are still interested to come, feel free to ask, i'll see what i can do~

-HUGS-

so for those who's names are here, see you Dears on 17th May, Saturday!

HURRAYS TO ELLEN!

2008-04-23T21:36:00.003+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHA!

today tired till drop dead also must BLOG!

my Dears...

L@@K!

FOUR BOXES AND 6 (1 eaten) SINGLES OF KINDER SURPRISE!

*TOUCHED*
i told Dear Ellen that i like onyx cause my dear Gackt wears them...
and L@@K!
this is a pair of onyx earrings!
she got herself one pair too!
*爱死你了*
eh... not cheap leh!

=========================love==========================

my Dears...
today... i can confirm + chop i will dio pok very soon...
cause ah...
during my afternoon lessons with my smarty class...
a parent was standing outside...
my kids were so HIGH after a workbook activity...
they were in a mess...
then... the parent shook her head...
haiz...
my other class is still a lot cuter...

Ellen ah...
so paisay leh... >.<
ok lah ok lah...
next time no need you to 破费 liao~
cause i am leaving soon le mah~
and i will be happier too!
we can go lim teh together~
we can go shopping together~
we can suan Matt like we did today together~
we can bear sour plum's complains together!
next next year bah... i think...
next year's June to settle transfer and go over during the start of next next year.
then i will have time to give tuition and further my studies too!
and we can go to concerts and operas too!
weeeh!
ok ok! BRIGHT SIDE!
must think on the BRIGHT SIDE!

so no matter if the P or the VP or my RO or HODs are after me...
i have to think on the BRIGHT SIDE!
and next time... its my turn to spend ok!
hohoho!
-hugs-

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原来，我还是蛮拘谨的。
总是防着别人……
但是，我又有什么资格被人骗呢？
可怜的小破孩，还真的是自己回家的。

ONITSUKA TIGER! I'M TIGER!

2008-04-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

hohoho!

clem ah...
你回来的真是时候！

我看现在啊……
在这世界上，最了解我的男人就是你了吧……（对，我老豆不了解我！完全不了解！）

刚才跟Clem通电话，
Clem问我什么时候迷上这种东西（kinders）的……
我说我本来就爱吃巧克力啊！
也本来就喜欢figurings啊！
Clem说原来他以为自己很了解我的……
没有啦！
你这样讲我很难过耶！
这些都只是些小事，这么在乎干嘛呢？
听你讲这些，
我头脑一直在转……
Clem啊，
到现在为止，你是影响我最大，最深的男人了……
自豪吧？荣幸吧？

Clem跟我其他的好兄弟不一样。
在那一次“教训”候，他很乖哦！
有很多事可以跟他说，
可以很直接，不留情面，
可以大女人，可以小女孩，
可以古古怪怪，可以大大咧咧！
不需要觉得自己是受保护动物。
他可以给我无限量的自由，
我们互不相欠，不需要对对方太好，也不太坏。
就是刚刚好，不需要避谈任何东西，也不需要担心谁过界。

我啊，身边真的不缺男人。
好兄弟一大把，多数都是受过“教训”的。
更不缺朋友，身边姐妹多的是！
疼我的人嘛，也不少啊！
兄弟姐妹家人都很疼我啊！
同事也对我很好！
可是有些事是需要双性来给意见的。
姐妹当然什么nonsense都可以说，
但是到了兄弟……就没几个能说的了。
有的兄弟就会听我说，什么都不说；
有的兄弟应该听我说，但是到最后变成我听他说。
有的是我不想跟他说……
Clem刚开始听的时候会跟我开玩笑，
然后就会很严肃地回答我。
这才是兄弟嘛！

谢啦，Clem!

我的Dears,来世也要做姐妹哦！
-抱抱-

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i'm in LOVE!

with ONITSUKA TIGER! I'M TIGER!
hohoho!
its so damn expensive in Singapore!
but Clem got them at such low prices in TW!
and i'm going over in June!
i'll get my Tigers!

and also tokidoki!
so adorable!
hohoho~ my Dears know my meaning of adorable well huh~
weeeh!
ROAR!

random

2008-04-20T23:59:00.003+08:00

random stuffs...

saw this at ngee aan city...
go into the toilet and you'll become headless...

a small reward from school cause band got silver~

a clearer view of what's inside!

thurday @ bugis with MehMeh~
DURIAN! BELGIAN CHOCOLATE! CHOCOLATE AND HAZELNUT CREAM!
it tastes like kinder brueno! NICE!

MehMeh and me!

me and Alice dotter~

friday, went to a few places, ended up in PS for dinner.
Ajitei! nice food with reasonable price!
cheaper den Waraku!

some of the food that me n QL ordered~

what Clem got for me!
the panda's the most expensive plushie he caught from UFO machines~
thanks bro!

the Flyer~

Clem's waiting when i shot the Flyer~
mai ah neh sian lah~

the Flyer... but nothing beats the beautiful moon~

tag replies:

wt, alice, xingyi, melty:

yesh yesh~ i'll get better~
don't worry!
i always do!
its just a matter of time!
and what happens during this "matter of time"
-hugs-

Mimipox:
heh~ ya, will change your nick when you have recovered and kicking!
thanks for all your cheer-up chats too!
lob you! -hugs-

ah_blur jie:
heh! ya! i don't have the ability to break bond also.
and i want to further my studies too!
so at the moment is to wait till nest year and apply for a TRANSFER!
xiexie ni! -hugs-

CLEM IS BACK!

2008-04-20T15:02:00.002+08:00

OMG!

CLEMENT IS BACK!

hahahaha~
i am so very happy!
my Dear CLEMENT is back!

clement ong!
i've been thinking about you these few nights leh!
when is clem coming back?
its already 17th April!

and there you are!

i suddenly feel this COURAGE and HAPPINESS overwhelming from the inside of my body!
i think i just missed you too much.
touched anot!?

and clem got me...
my Dear SJ poster! my laogong GACKT poster!
KINDER SURPRISE! x6 hoh!
and something else...
its ok you didn't manage to find the Blackstone cigs.

LOVE YOU!
cya ltr bro!
hohoho!

经过那么多年，还是CLEM最好......

happenings

2008-04-20T00:34:00.004+08:00

a lot happened recently...
or should i say since last year...

all these added up...
made me so stressed and demoralised and kind of hopeless for staying in this track...
i feel like breaking too...

went to visit MIMIPOX just now.
it was a great SURPRISE for her!
we felt good too,
cause we needed a place to let out and talk.
her place is just the right place.
and MIMIPOX's sis is like a guiding light to us.
she analysed our situation one by one, especially Mic's,
and all she can say to me is "Sorry".
T.T
but well...
all i have to do is hang on for 1 more year!
and i'll be off to JS or TV!
anywhere...
but HERE!

seems like we always have stories to tell...
and me of course...
have a very interesting one...
QL always tell me "dio pok loh!"
how i wish ok!

so maybe 4 years later,
i'll be in Jakarta!

Mic, jia you!
you can do it!
especially when you have the choice!
SUPPORT YOU!

haiz...
MIMIPOX's sis don't let us break bond leh...
if can i maybe buying my airtix to Jakarta now!

again...
BIG THANKS to:

wt, for being so WORRIED!
and trying to cheer me up with funny pics of SJM.

my dotter Alice for you care and concern.

my grand-dotter Xingyi for being so busy but will still say FIGHTING for me!

阿Q!
真是同病相怜啊！（虽然症状有点不同）
今世做姐妹，下辈子做兄弟吧!

and of course, my STP Dears...
you know who you are!
really love you all leh!

and Limin ah...
we are so fucking worried for you ok!
you know how serious things are when i use vulgarities!
so you better do something!
TALK TO US!

sorry

2008-04-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

sorry Dears...

i am just feeling so unwell and down.
near to the stage of emo...

sorry MIMIPOX...
you said so much yesterday...
but my heart, mind and soul were just too exhausted.
i'm so sorry that i fell asleep when you were comforting me.
how i wish that i'm by your side when you are saying such assuring words.

sorry WT,
i was just very not in the mood to star-chase online.
the MV did took my mind off my troubles for a (short) while.
and my son...
why is he wearing that ugly mask?
you are so very adorable but UGLY and now you want to make yourself look uglier!?
ARE YOU NUTS!?
oh no... you are MONKEY!

BIG THANKS to MEHMEH,
who came all the way from SAJC...
to CHS...
and helped me...
MARK BOOKS!
-love you-&-hugs-
and you still look like a secondary school kid.
ok... ok... so do I...

every Friday...
i have to risk being "compliment" as a little girl...
and also freak my friends out if they are meeting me...

and Alice,
thanks,
Umma will be alright... soon i hope...
-hugs-

its been really difficult to control myself recently...
i even fell asleep in McDonald's!
so sorry QL...
left you there with your chocolate sundae.

and sorry Ellen...
you got me so much SURPRISES...
but i just have no time to meet you.
Wednesday it is!

its been difficult holding a smile up...
but i've been doing it for such a long time.
and when frustration leaks...
i snapped...
even at my mom.
sorry mom.
i just couldn't stand your nagging at that point of time.

and Mic,
i feel so glad for you!
i hope this will happen to me too!
i need to leave that place.
this is for you and everybody, especially... myself.

"有些事现在不做一辈子都不会做"

wrong

2008-04-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

wrong...
all is wrong...

i am too fucking tired...
too fucking demoralised...

Mic, i will always support what ever decision that you make.
go for it!

i need to leave this place.

tag replies

2008-04-17T23:54:00.001+08:00

sorry Dears, i'm just too exhausted these few days...
and i gey kiang...
i still want to go out and have fun...
go FAAAAAR AWAY somemore...
so... i didn't have the energy to blog.
therefore...
i shall at least reply my Dears' tags...

tag replies:

Dotter:
heh~ have fun jiu hao lah!
learning most important is to HAVE FUN!
and that post for WT is cause she VIOLENTLY REQUESTED for it...
heh heh!
and finally, WE MET UP!
-hugs-
next time we play arcade and take purins together ok!
bobo!

wt:
aiyo...
got work got pay,
no work no say!
u don't understand meh?
you 2 ah!
tsk tsk...
cher work part-time also not happy ah?

Melty:
MELTY!
OKOK! 3 weeks my school also SA1 almost over liao!
and you are coming for my boys' concert!
weeh! can see grand-dotter liao!
happy!
and then we can soon go FONDUE-ING!
-hugs-

my Dears, must take care hoh!

-BIG HUGS-

on WT

2008-04-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

due to violent request from WT...
i shall blog about her now, midnight...
see i give you FACE leh!
your name is RED! BOLD! IN CAPS and UNDERLINED!

my Dearest WT kept sms-ing me while she's still in lesson.
so nice hoh...
even during lessons also think of me...
then keep asking me how?
no money to go to Korea, how?
skally got money go, no money to spend, how?
so nice hoh...
kept worrying for me... and herself...

then she called me IMMEDIATELY after her school ended.
as usual, cheered me up by talking cock to me...
cracking lame jokes...
so lame... so cold... but i still love you -hugs-
say go home then we chat on msn...
but i went back to school still never see her online...
so i marked and waited...
then went home...

and so dear WT is there waiting for me! online...
updated me about my SON, SJ and the most recent topic of all... SJ-M!
i am soooo very the TRAUMATISED by this... 周觅!
he looks like SHIWON+KANGTA+TEUK!
simply... an ALIEN!
and henry looked like some small little kid in the MV...
totally CANNOT FIT IN!
must get compensation from SM!

i missed my son...
sorry Dear, so busy that i didn't manage to celebrate your birthday...

so much on SJ-M...
now good news from WT!
SJ-T is preparing their new album now!
and so this DEC will be a TROT WINTER cum CHRISTMAS!
OMG!
I WANT TO GET BACK TO KOREA!!
DAE HAN MIN GUK!
CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP!
WT, i don't care...
you go and sell backside, sell tensai or sell kanasai!
just go and get enough money to get to KOREA, stay there and come back!
no money then you can forget about shopping...
and CHER!
prepare your MONEY!

CHINGU DEUR!
DONII OBSEO, HANGUK ODDAE GAYEO!?

so my dears, go and save up your EVERY PENNY ah!

bobo WT

sweet~

2008-04-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us,
How I longed for the told of the recess bell,
Have you forgotten me?
Or mindless of me?
Tell me that I am not writing into an abyss.
Or that is what's going to become of my heart.

this is so sweet...
and its an educational CM!
hope i didn't get any typo here.

today wasn't a very good start...
the baby who is in my class now, let's call him Confucius, since he is always in a state of confusion and always uses his only talent on my kids...
ohya... never fail to shock me with his lesson plans.
so i wasn't very happy!
but SYF is OVER!
meaning no CCA in the afternoon!
and i have more time!
to... mark... mark... mark... what else?
ohya! MARK!
i was already super down until the last 3rd lesson...
but i saw this COCOA TREE HAMPER on my desk!
KALAVULEH!
A WHOLE HAMPER OF CHOCS!
and confucius actually have the cheek to ask for it ok!
i just ignored him, even if we were secondary schoolmates...
this is a BIG NO NO!
so my spirit is UP again!
see lah! i told you Amber 很好养的！
with my spirit UP and kicking, lessons in 4A went well!
then had lunch with Kai @ J8...
told her about my "EXCITEMENT" in CHS...
she is surprised, but not very shocked...
and she still can hala with me!
前辈！你是zai的！
hohoho!
was back in school at around 4PM, nua a bit and started marking...
then went home happily at 5+PM when it was raining!
and i still have tonnes to mark!
my Dears who aren't magging...
come and help me leh!

谷底

2008-04-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

Saturday

the previous post was blogged on this Saturday morning...
i was so excited about seeing my Dear granddaughter Xmei.
went to school in my eccentric fashion wear and i walked pass... SEC SCH CHOIR!

SHOCKED!
then i met Theresa in the staffroom, she's rehearsing with them, no wonder... poor girl.
did my marking then rushed off to ACSI.
my 不孝孙女 gave me wrong info.
she told me to take bus 14 in front of Ngee Ann City.
but the problem is, the road in front of NAC is a one-way road, meaning THERE'S NO BUS-STOP AT ALL!
bus-stops' at the other side.
and it was raining, me holding 2 BIG sunflowers and an umbrella...
in the end i had no choice but to take a cab.
and by the way, i called my Dear Xmei FOURTEEN times!
and thank you my Dear Melty for telling me where ACSI is~
几经波折, i reached Xmei...
here's her side of the story...

but im really glad for those who supported me all the way and comforted after the thing... i've got a thank you list

firstly to AMBER, omg she totally shocked me when i was abt to start performance and she was jus standing right at the side. and she bought us sunflowers! im jus super glad to see her la. she lost her way to ACSI, somehow managed to find her way to ACSI, and also to the multipurpose hall! ahma you're damn zai, im sry for not picking up your 14 missed calls =( love you lotssss!

heh... ahma loves you lots too!
-BIG HUGS-
poor girl, was practically hugging her when she cried...
my Dears, if you need me, just stretch out your hand and ahma will come flying to you ok!
and i have to say...
Xmei ah... your costume... really can do the "Jailhouse Rock" dance you know...
-HUGS-

after leaving ACSI,
i got back to AMK safe and sound... (heng ah!)
was 犯贱-ing at Tenchi comics...
ya, so busy still go and buy comics!
SLAP ME! (我知道你们不舍的啦！)

reached home at 5.30pm and my relatives from Malaysia came! SURPRISE!
my aunt said i was so 乖, never go out.
i was like -.-'' i went, and came back.
well you see, if Amber is home on Saturday, SOMETHING MUST BE WRONG is the mentality of my family.
then we went to ECP in the evening.
aunt started to ask about boyfriends and such.
she still feels that i am only 18 or 19...
so i can't really blame those taxi uncles who thought i'm only 16 and a FEMALE STUDENT OF CHS, rite?
ohya, by the way, my colleagues have OFFICIALLY noted that i am the first female student of CHS... not proud at all...

my Dears, your PRO AMBER had shown her talent again!
she slept once her head hit the ground... (i was in the tent!)
was sms-ing Xmei too, to make sure that she's fine, alive and kicking.

then came GOOD NEWS!
a SMS from LI MIN!

Dearest fren, i read ur blog... touched by the words that u wrote... sorri to make u worry n super super thanks n gan3 dong4 for ur care n concern!! afterour work, really must go n eat dinner more often, n talk about how "good" e kids are! Hahaha! Coming friday, meetingu all at chinatown to eat, great time to talk about sch... other stuff also! Haha!

WEEEH! LM is alive and kicking again!

so how's the rest of my Dears this week?

Sunday

i realised i CANNOT be a TAITAI!
went to Ann's just now for a scrub+javanese massage+treatment+etc.
i was practically lying down for 4 and a half hours!
and it sums up my whole SUNDAY!

-HUGS my DEARS-
see you Dears soon ok! bobo!

POST SYF

2008-04-12T08:07:00.000+08:00

SYF is realy a killer...
and i am getting SYF aftermaths...

anyway... was too tired to blog yesterday...
i reached home at 6.30pm, was thinking to take a nap and go to the doc at 7pm, but...
i was KO-ed by Z-monsters and woke up at 6.30AM!

read my Dear Melt's post and am so TOUCHED!

melt: was on the phone with ahma for an hour. AHMA, I MISS TALKING TO YOU! try not to make your life even more exciting than it is now okay! hahaha. if you have a problem, CAN CALL ME! i will abandon my studies for you! ((: ahma, i help you find future ahgong okay! hehehe. and 좋은 사람 비밀이예요! ((: ahma, take care yah. 건강하세요! 사랑해. 그리고 고마워!

my Melty, i HEART you too!

i really missed those days when i call my Dearest granddaughters and they will shout "AHMA" once they pick up my call...
well, they still do now...
hahaha!

and i met Xmei yesterday! with her friend too!
hohoho!
this 2 little sua kus...
don't know that a Capsule Station is called a Capsule Station...
Don't how to get the toy from the Capsule station...
aiyo... reminds me of my boys...
poor girls...
must jia you for your competition ok!
GET GOLD GET GOLD GET GOLD!!!
AHMA WILL BE THERE TO SUPPORT YOU!!!

and when we were on the train going home...

me: what cca are you in?

X: FRISSBEE!

me: 你是狗吗？

X: T.T|||

Friend: MUAHAHAHAHA!

X: i wonder what you are going to say if i tell you my 2nd cca...

me: whats your 2nd cca?

X: interaction club.

me: 你是导盲犬阿Q吗？

X: Y.Y|||

Friend: MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

okok...
-BIG HUGS-

丁老师asked me if i am going out after school yesterday...
i was like... ya... i am... i'm going out to see the doctor...
but... >.< BIG HUGS TO AL MY DEAREST GRANDDAUGHTERS AND ALL MY DEARS!

SYF

2008-04-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

we got a SILVER for SYF!
weeeh!
okok... frankly...
we were kind of disappointed...
we wanted a GOLD.
but we made obvious mistakes...
so...
we should be glad that we got a SILVER.
the boys...
they are glad about it too,
but if its a GOLD, they will feel alot HAPPIER!

really enjoyed the post SYF BBQ at Chelsea's.
big thanks girl!
and we really did work very hard for it.
and big thanks to all your wishes, my Dears!
these little boys ah...
i lent them my NDSL...
and... they took good care of it!
hohoho!

1 down... and ALOT more to go!
my cough is still trying hard to killing me...
its worst during the night especially during the time that i am trying to sleep...
yes yes...
i'll go to see the doc... soon!
i have ALOT of markings to clear...
and my "helping hand" is not helping at all...
instead... he is giving me MORE TROUBLE!
roar!
if i am his CT, i WILL FAIL HIM!
i don't want to be the one to let him out to the world to harm the kids...

and this part is for my Dearest MIMIKO!
MIMIKO! i got the (bad) news from QL.
down with the sickness...
i know its very very tong ku...
and you may not be able to complete your obs...
go and ask your CTs for advice!
you have to...
don't just feel sad and emo by yourself.
go and look for solution!
Deary Ambery (almost puke everytime you call me that) is always here! 24/7!
am not having band till after SA1~
so call me! sms me! jio me out!
my shoulders may be loaded with alot of sai kangs...
but i still can spare some space for you to lean on...
DON'T BE LIKE LI MIN AH!
i tell you...
if you do what she did...
玩失踪啊……
then you better really 失踪 hoh...
if not ah...
heh... heh...

and oh ya!
my Dears!
XMei is having this brainy competition,
Saturday, 12th April, 12:30PM @ ACSI.
i'm going there to support her~
anyone of you Dears want to come?
miss me right?
come lah!

T.T when can i eat my Ellen jiejie give me de Kinder Surprise worr...

-hugs all my Dears-
will post my cute boys pics tml~

To Li Min...

2008-04-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

To Li Min...

My dear friend,
you knew that we will be very worried if anything happens to you.
you knew that I, who have been to TVPS and sadly, is now is CHS, knows very well how you feel right now.
you also know that you have a bunch of friends who really care for you no matter where you are or what you are doing.

so please...
don't disappear so suddenly again...
i know, or rather, WE know, that you are not very good with words,
but what are friends for?
come to us, come and talk to us.
tell us that you need us and we will definitely be there!
yes, even when SYF is round the corner,
we will still try to find time for you.
please, do not hide your feelings.
if you feel that you can't take it anymore, just tell us.
i may not be in TVPS, but we are so near!
and there's always Ellen and last resort, Matt rite?

you have already shocked us during the last practicum, and now this...
don't do it again, ok...
do not repeat the same mistake again...
you have a choice!
calling me and telling me how bad your kids are,
how heavy your workload is,
how humid your staffroom is,
its all fine with me!
i will definitely pick your call!
call me! meet me! look at me!
you will definitely feel happier!
i'll try my best to cheer you up!
i'll crack very very lame jokes...
i'll listen to your cold jokes too!
we can always find one day and go to Kino to rot!

莉敏啊，
理智点去想一想吧，
这个环境适合你吗？
这份工作适合你吗？
如果不适合，哪有什么工作适合你呢？
你还能走那一条路呢？
如果你真的厌恶这份工作，
你是有选择的！
你可以离开的！
不要这样拖着，
对你的身体、精神、大家都不好。
如果这份工作对你来说是一种负担，
那你真的应该想一想了。

只要你肯伸出手来，
我们就在你身边。
不要把我们推开，知道吗？
你的那句"i am ok le. thanks."真的不够，很让人不安……

注意健康！
Amber

谷底……

2008-04-07T22:22:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so sick...
my sore throat n cough is killing me!
n i tink i'll get a fever vv soon...

n...
OMG!
there is a VERY HIGH CHANCE that we'll be performing w the sec sch band...
which will drag till 17th May...
my poor boys!
my poor body...

n i am soooo worried abt LM...
r u ok?
y din u call back or reply my smses?

My Dears, don't 想不开 ok!
有事好商量!
不要做傻事啊！

n come come...
hug hug!
look at me!
im alr at e bottom of the valley!
nobody will or can fall lower than me!
look at how cham i am n u'll feel better!
so look at me!

bobo!

complete-incomplete

2008-04-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

come to tink of it...
i realised...
materialistically...
i have all those that i want and need.
even if i don't...
i will get it soon.

and freedom...
(personal space)i have my keys with me 24/7.
(speech)i can be frank with my friends, and i have no worries about it.
(financially)its just a matter of time.

so... what do i lack?
PERSONAL TIME!
will transferring of school increase my personal time?
well...
yes, if i transfer to TVPS.

what else do i need?
i need to further my studies!
which is closely linked to personal time and money!
FAINT!

anyway...
nothing is too difficult to accomplish!
even if it is...
Amber will still stay happy...
cause... I AM STILL ALIVE!
and if anything bad happens...
the most is just die loh...
whats the big deal right!?

my Dears ah...
i know you Dears are very very stressed too~
come come! run to ahma!
let ahma give you a BIG BIG HUG!
ahma will love you Dears forever ok!

*encouraging myself and my Dears*

still having my very serious non-alcoholic hangover...
hope it gets better by tomorrow.

bobo my Dears!
tata!

non-alcoholic hangover

2008-04-06T10:19:00.000+08:00

omg...
wat a DAY + NIGHT!
hohoho~
okok...
its not fake happiness!
its real crappy n fun!

ok...
everyting started when i fell aslp...
started.. ?.? yeah! really!
n my cousin had to wake me up...
so gently... not good...
Amber will NOT wake up w "its time~ wake up~"

>.<

Damnit... took me quite a while to use my fone in a proper way...

Aaron n gf, Amelia.

Himu n gf, Winnie.

Me n Winnie!

by the time i fixed my fone... we were on our way back to e ground...
missed e chance to take a pic w ah Yee. tsk... but we had neoprints~

Amelia had to work, so we went over to Suntec EngWah to get tix for 3Kingdoms den rot in e arcade...
i haf totally no skills in playing the UFO machines... so...

MY DEARS! I WAN ALL THESE! MUAHAHAHA!

i juz cant stop smiling when i see these!!

some pro actually got THIS ok! n another plastic bag of plushies!

more of JACK SKELLNGTON!

SQUEEZE THOSE STITCHES!

hohoho... My Dears... among these plushies... u noe which im looking at rite?

UBER CUTE!

hohoho! i like e yellow ones... look like e grumpy me!

den we went to ben & jerry's..

before...

during...

the "After" was too disgusting... so... haha~

played Taiko w ah Yee while waiting... i really nd to go to the arcade often...

ROAR!

ALIEN! guess how much?

ROAR! 299SGD! pity there wasnt a PREDATOR!

e QUEEN!

went to watch e movie when Amelia came...
it was 1+ when e movie ended...
but i demanded POOL!
so we drove ard to look for Pools to play~
1st stop... Marina Square~

everyting was closing soon...
so we slacked there abit...

LOOK! whole set only 9.90SGD!!!

n this set is sooo CUTE!

we drove ard n ended up at PoolFusion...
peeps, this is good, it closes at 5am!
so anybody who wants late nite pool, go PoolFusion!
had brkfast at Geylang...
reach hm at 6am!
heheh...
so "early" ah~

dropped dead!

PTM

2008-04-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

thurs...

bad encounter...
demoralised...
needs hugs...
lots of hugs...

fri...

tired...
sorethroat...
felt like dying...
had to work...
worked till 9...
went for my HOD's father's wake...
reached home at 11pm and dropped dead...
4A's parents are friendly...
got thanks and praises...
but... im still demoralised...
made me more keen on transfering...
they threw me a baby...
my sec sch mate...
he's going to stick on to me till 9th May...
what am i going to tell the parents!?

sat...

meet the baby for what's going on in my class...
met my band boys...
so tired...
went home...
slacked...
going out w Aaron n gf, Himu n gf n my cousin ltr...
these guys claimed tt they've nt met me for 2 yrs...
fuck lah... opps... tend to get vulgar when im w them...
u guys came to my bday chalet last yr ok...
n slp on MY BED!
roar...
my cousin... she's here since Monday...
but i dun haf anytime for her!

im gg to stay out late tonite!
haf fun! lots of fun!
drown myself in fake happiness...

Miss me my Dears~
i miss u Dears too.

demoralised

2008-04-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

心情不好，不想去跑，想去睡了。

lucky seems nv by my side when i enter this... place...
i was nv in a real, total bliss of happiness...
i yearn to get out...
n today...
i actually asked Mehmeh, to die or to trf?
there were ppl to help me...
but i still feel so helpless...
i cant survive here...
so y dun juz let me go?

anyway...
dun wanna tok much abt it...
dun wanna spread my upset-ness to my Dears...
juz gimme HUGS...
tt'll do...
Fuck... i cant even take chocolates to destress!

Meh's e 1st to hug me...
n nw... im kind of like... comforting her...
it usually ends like tt...
i'm used to it...

==================================================

was watching e last epi of Hong Gi-Dong 《快刀洪吉童》.
金典对白：

1 by 爱上洪吉童的大小姐对自己说：
“我要远走他乡，把自己送到远方，去一个不想看到的可以不看，不想听到的可以不听的远方……慢慢的……放飞我心中的你。”

2 by 爱上利禄才变得像人样的皇上（颤抖+流泪）：
“我心中的人……将会死去……你走吧。”

3 by 利禄 to 王上的侍卫（打斗ing）：
“我所认识的好人公子都快要死了，快去守护他吧。”

haiz...
ok... heng i skipped all e mushy mushy part...

shld it rain HEAVILY tml?
wat ever...

=======================================

im not the kind of princess who waits for the prince to come n save her...
im the sadako who tries hard to crawl out of the well...
n in the meantime... freaking some ppl out...
curse u ppl... i am coming out!

=======================================

what i ordered frm WARAKU w CLem...

what Ellen ordered frm Kopi Club...

what i ordered frm Kopi Club...

SURPRISE!

2008-04-02T23:17:00.000+08:00

omg!
today i am soooooo happy ah!
i no need to go run liao!
hohoho!

ELLEN GOT ME KINDER SURPRISE!
MUAHAHAHAHA!
知我者莫若ELLEN也啊！
我看我要认她做干姐了！
爱你爱你爱你！！！

we wanted to watch SKY OF LOVE today...
its the last day at Cathay Orchard (for those who doesnt know where... its actually CINE!)
i was sooooo confident that there will still be tix...
but who knows! SOLD OUT!
SURPRISE!!

OK... i got it from Ellen before we got down the cab at cine.
den i went to the basement to get tix n Ellen went to get some mags.
i was sooooo optimistic ah...
i told Ellen (and myself):有失必有得，没得看戏，得到这个(kinder surprise)也不错啊！"
waaah~ i really 看得很开 leh!
i can be easily pacified by a box of chocs！
hehehe!

we din waste the day doh~
went to kino and looked at BOOKS!
these books really made me happy!
coz... i dun haf to MARK them!
hohoho!
other den NANA18, we got the books tt we wanted...
den we nua-ed at Kopi Club... i mean Coffee Club...
a cafe doesnt really suit me nw...
y? SORETHROAT!
roar...
but den...
Amber is very 乖 de...
Amber ordered CHEESE & MUSHROOMS & CHEESE & MUSHROOMS & CHEESE!
in other words... lots of CHEESE & MUSHROOMS!
Ellen had Mushroom Swiss Cheese~
omg! okok... Amber & Ellen are real similar!
including our personality...
i'm sumting like a younger and wilder but poorer vers of Ellen.
we both had CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE TOPPED W CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM!
waah... bloody smooth! opps...
i actually put down my comics for the MILKSHAKE ok!
sorry Kaori... the MilkShake is too attractive!
n super 乖 Amber got herself a strawberry shortcake!
Ellen had Rum and Raisin...
we talked alot...
and i mean alot!!
heh~ HAPPY!

den we went down to e basement to look for more Kinder Surprise but found nought.
but i am still happy... coz i haf 1 box in hand!
den Ellen went to get her breakfast for tml and we took e train hm~
hohoho!

in e train...
super squeezy...
den i saw 2 guys who r quite tall...
FAINT...
nono... not handsome or pretty boys...
they r standing face to face, super near to e door.
e guy facing e door was trying to pull himself away frm his fren...
-.-'' bth... as if ppl will tink tt they r... erm hrm...
den his fren -.-'' "你在做什么！？"
hahaha! den them mumbled...
okok... if u r nt there... u dun understand how funny e situation was...

anyway~
its a happy day!!!
lets hope tml will be 1 too!
hohoho!

=======================================================

dotter: YESH YESH! MEETUP!! after my SYF ok! pray for my band hoh! love ya!

Melt: aiyo... my sweet granddotter leh... i'm really touched when i asked u wat do u wan frm tw n u said u wan me to come back safely... LOVE U!

wt: eh... im gg to get contact lens soon! will be amBLIND nomore!

Les: -.-'' i told wt to remove tt... but she said its hard work... >.< ok... lets respect her hard work. so did u get ur w960i w tt 988sgd? hehehe

LOVE MY DEARS and special LOVES N THANKS TO ELLEN!

L.o.v.e?

2008-04-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

oh man...
hate it when my Dears get hurt...

sorry Melty...
was so busy tt ahma neglected u...
r u feeling better nw?
did ahma's lame jokes cheer u up?
i tink silly tings tt ahma did did stunned u rite?
hehehe!
HUGS!
ahma will try her best to grow up ok!

Amber is always changing...
n so does her nick...
Amber was once named Amblur...
reason? coz she IS BLUR!
n nw... she is nicknamed AMBLIND!
reason? she is somewhat... BLIND!
ya... really... my Dears understand why...
n so do my colleagues...

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爱。
今天快速的看了一本叫《爱心树》的书。
应为名比较贴切，"The Giving Tree".
这棵树爱上了一个常在它身边玩乐的小男孩。
它很快乐。
到小男孩长大了之后，
树把果子啊、树枝啊、甚至是树干也给了它永远的小男孩。
小男孩贪得无厌，可是树却无止境的给。
它很快乐。
直到最后，树只剩下树根了，它还让小男孩坐在它上面。
树很快乐。

这就是爱？
我……能够给这种爱吗？
能！我的潜在是双鱼座耶！
我什么做不出来！？
我还真担心我做得出来啊！

还有《失落的一角》"The Missing Piece",
大家应该听过吧？
人永远都在寻找让他圆满的东西。
有人找到权贵；有人找到爱。
我？刚好两样都没有耶！
有！我有什么？
现在，我有我的Dears的爱！

现在，很矛盾。
是应该寻找爱，还是等待爱呢？
我啊？
随缘咯！（因为大家都那么说，大家是谁？年纪比我大得大家咯！）

还有一本叫《我想要爱》。
好想要这本书哦！
这是一本寻找爱的书！

不知怎的，
错爱总是找上我，
我也总是找上错爱。

最近，潇洒有来找过我哦！

我的Dears，好好照顾自己哦！
Melt要乐观点！
ahma请你吃冰淇淋！
Melly也要好好照顾自己哦！
偏头痛不好玩的！
WT不要再堕落了！快点做工！还想回韩国吗！？
Alice和咩咩也加油哦！

啵啵！
Lean on me, my Dears, you can, always.

Happy Amber~

2008-03-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

Good news, my Dears~
Amber is feeling happier~
Yap...
realised it when i went running just now...
relieved, my Dears?
ya, i know you Dears have been worried about me...
well... now, other then WORK, i'm doing just fine...
just that... now... 75% of my life is WORK!

Dears... don't misunderstand me...
as you know...
I'M NOT A WORKOHOLIC!!
I'M A SLACKOHOLIC!

i survive better when i slack~
heh... who doesn't?
ooh~ my Ryn laopo doesn't!
hehe~

Dears, i really wish that i have more time for you guys...
but... >.<
i need to get back to TVPS...
or maybe JSPS.

it's been BAND BAND BAND and... BAND lately...
the day is 10th April.
i'm not musically inclined, but erm...
some parts just doesn't sound right...

and...
my boys! they are just so... cute... some LOVABLE!
SOME only hoh...

and erm...
there are errands that i DON'T like to but have to do...
like going over to the sec side...
asking for boys to help through their drum major...
due to some reasons, somebody seems to be over-sensitive...
what to do? we are so short of MANpower!
thanks anyway...
really, thanks for helping...
and from Judy,
seems like we MAYBE performing with the sec band on 17th May.
i thought i can be sitting down comfortably with Ellen as audience...
but then... now we've got more! we have BACKSTAGE PASSES!
who want to buy?
but its not confirmed yet.
we'll see...

我真是“猴塞雷”啊！
恢复能力超强！
我竟然鼓起勇气看《NANA》哦！
弓虽吧！！！
是时候了，花了我一个礼拜欸！
再撒花感谢我身边的“亲菇”们！

再来就是忙去台湾的事了，
好期待啊！
Mimiko期待艳遇……
我差点晕死过去……
我不期待这种东西。
缘分，该来的总会来的。
急不来。
凯凯的祝福我先收下咯！
谢啦！

还有！
祝CO明天好运来！
加油！加油！加油！
一定要拿金牌哦！

baby, i'm not sure if this is love

2008-03-30T15:22:00.000+08:00

Club 8 - Baby, I'm Not Sure If This Is Love

lovers keep their secrets
baby, i'm not sure if this is love
and love can make us greedy
baby i don't think that's for us
it's not for me to be

lovers keep their distance
maybe they don't like what they see
and love can make us jealous
baby there's no right for me to be
it's not for me to see

if we give in
maybe we'll be like them
i don't want the sadness
to be ours too
baby there's no pressure
on you

lovers keep their secrets
baby, i'm not sure if this is love
and love can make us greedy
baby i don't think that's for us
it's not for me to be

if we give in
maybe we'll be like them
i don't want the sadness
to be ours
baby there's no pressure
on you

lovers keep their secrets
baby, i'm not sure if this is love

=========================================

好了，
够了。
李雯宁要回到潇洒身边了。
其实，李雯宁跟潇洒是沾不上边的，
因为李雯宁是双鱼座的人。
常会感情用事，拖泥带水。
很多人都看不出来，
因为我也鄙视双鱼座。
可是，随着岁月的洗礼，
这些双鱼座的特质渐渐在天山童老身上出现。
真是矛盾啊！

我承认，这一步，我走错了。
可是，我不后悔。
到现在为止发生的事，我没有后悔过。
这些回想起来很甜美的回忆，
我现在要把它打包起来，放进厨里了。

你说过，you always attract the wrong type。
你知道为什么吗？
那是因为你的一举一动常会让人误会。
不要让人误会的话，
千万不要发一些有的没的sms，
千万不要欲言又止，
还有，最重要的，
千万不要给人买早餐。
记得咯！
怎么说，跟你相比，我也算是老姜。
不信童老言，吃亏在眼前啊，老人家！

回头想一下，
最近烦他的事，
脑子里没了朋友的踪影。
miane... chingudeur~
给大家带来麻烦了！
发现啊，
真正甜蜜的事，
是在你烦的时候，
有朋友在你身边。
Ellen, Ah Q, Millie, 鸟人, Clem，要是漏了你的名字，不要扁我！
我的连续剧（Ellen喜欢叫漫话）不是停播了（停载），是结局了（最终回）！

Clem问过我，会等到什么时候，
我竟然天真的说年尾！（我是阿娇吗！？）
不行，我不是那种可以让一件事悬在空中，完全不理会的人。
所以，只好完全放下才能前进了。
以后的事，以后再说吧。
只要人没死，什么事都好办！

我终！

PS: Kumowo Chingu! 谢啦，朋友！

Low Grade Viewty!

2008-03-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

Bye Bro Clem~
i'll miss u~
n the tings tt i told u to get for me~
MUAHAHAHA!

haiz...
Clem...
really my xiong di...
asked him to accp me go n get Lousy Goods ( by wt) aka Low Grade ( by Clem) Viewty,
den he str8 away say YES!
hohoho~

its been ard 6mths since we last met...
nt bad sia~
slimmed down... better looking nw... (words frm clem's mouth)
hehe~ ok lah ok lah... AGREED by amber~ happy?

we did e usual tings we always do tgt...
TOK KOK!
hahaha~ yeah...
n update each other loh...
happy~
ohya...
we chose my new hp no is coz we talked abt some "205" when we were on the train...
so he suggested tt i pick tt no...
n i did~

den we had WARAKU~
my treat!
a bon voyage treat for him too...
since he'll flying to tw...
i ordered Hotate Cheese n Cream Udon, n oso Potato Mentai~
weeh~ cheesy~ i love~
clem had... some chicky cutlet don...
cldnt remb...
coz i had sorethroat n i cant try his...
T.T
den we had ice cream desert!
omg...
so sad loh...
sorethroat caused me to forgo all my fav ice creams!
my D24 durian n my black sesame!
T.T

den we went to play... POOL!
we were NOT on form at all...
but sursprisingly...
i won 3 out of 4 games...

clem's slipdisk prob seems to be more serious den he thot...
take k man!

den we went to get accesories for my Viewty~
Viewty is nw named KiGan aka 鬼眼, a song frm DEG's 鬼门 album...
n Jones getting her new fone tml~ or rather... later...

eh... my Dears! she is one of u peeps loh...
Jones is oso my dear~
y do ppl keep asking who is Jones?
no... my grand-daughters... she is NOT ur new ah gong~
ur official ah gong will always be Gackt! ok!

ok... back to my KiGan... KiGan is not Low Grade or Lousy at all!
in fact~ its user-frenly! SURPRISED!

speaking of surprised...
i am soooo desperate abt kinder surprise...
i told clem to get me 3 boxes frm tw... >.<
hohoho~ crazy amber~
clem hao xiong di accp until like... 8.30pm,
when he haf to reach e airport at 11.30pm...
i tink by e time he reached hm... it'll be ard 9.30pm...
thanks again man!

n nw i am bz checking out hotels w 鸟人QL.
hehehe~
we r gg to sqeeze 4 not so small size gers into a triple room... for... NINE DAYS!
gosh~ lemme enjoy my bed...

a happy day~ but i felt sickier... >.<

clem my bro...
heh...
he is always the 1st to noe me sooo very well...
remb all my facts sooo very well...
n nw...
1st to memorise my new no...
even i cant remb my no!
hahaha~
ya, im honoured lah...
n i oso let u haf e honour to be e 1st to sms n call me rite?
hohoho~

k lah~
ciaos!
argh...

sick

2008-03-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

oh me mama~
din tink it was so serious until even breathing hurts so much...
so... ms amber lee took mc today...

aldoh i am sick...
i still went to meet Ah Q, she needs my comfort...
was glad to meet her too!
missed her...
we talked alot...
i just love talking...
a form of destressing~

den i went to meet ellen...
to talk again!
i erm...
drank a cup of MILK that costed me 4.60SGD!
ya... tink e cow is from duno where...
ellen ordered alot of food...
den we had to da bao home...

ever since tt incident...
i've been really keen to go out w frens...
i juz need to tok to someone abt it...
to double confirmed tt im nt wrong...
that i've nt missed any information...

life's tough...
but life still goes on...
n wt, im not NL!
i haf a life!
muahahaha~

n thanks Jones for offering to come to my house n take care of me...
but its ok...
if u come ah...
u cfm will be stuck to my SUJU dvds or my comics...
i may even haf to cook for u...
skally i die somewhere in my hse u oso dunno...
so u might as well nt come...
i feel alot better when u r in my heart n luckily nt in my hse~
muahahaha~

thanks peeps!
e moody days will be over soon!

i am going to TAIWAN!

2008-03-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

Double confirmed!
i am going to TAIWAN!
in june of coz...
3rd week to 4th week!
9th to 17th june!
weeeh!

if by tt time i still can let go...
i tink i shall juz cry in taiwan~
hohoho!
i haf to let it out!
bleah! ;p

i tink i ROARED too much...
w little effect...
but i hurt my throat...
hurts...

saw a pair of super nice headphones...

meet Desert G.I. frm SkullCandy~

i want this beauty!!!
but e webby doesnt ship it to SG!
ROAR!
n nw am asking Dear Les n WT for help~
u gers v nice de rite~
hohoho~

went running again...
e perspiration...
SONG AH!

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现在，
就让记忆随风而逝吧……

scenerio 4?

2008-03-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Shit...
Ellen has given me scenario 4!
傻瓜以为有第三个人！

算了，
现在是冷静期。
不管了。

我很怪吗？
其实，像我这样的女孩很多啊……
真的到处都是。
可能……其他这样的女孩离你们比较远，
而我又刚巧在你们身边而已嘛。
我喜欢的东西也不会很怪啊！
我也有血有泪啊！

我，也是个需要吃喝拉撒的人类。
我也是个会爱会恨的女孩。
我很重义气，忠朋友。
我也会哭会笑。
我也需要爱。

其实，这个怪女孩得到了很多的爱……很多很多哦！
意外吗？
因为这个怪女孩有真心！
与那些虚情假意的伪君子相比，怪女孩得到的可多了！

最近累得常在沙发或按摩椅上睡着。
好像耳鸣也越来越严重了。
食欲不佳，心情不佳。

幼稚的心灵啊，幼小的身体啊……
不能负荷了。
我需要的，是离开这里。
有机会了，很快就有机会了。

拜五早上不是我做duty，
所以我不管了。
自己看着办吧！

好似小小的，害羞的寄居蟹，却背负着全世界……

ps: 各位老公老婆，兄弟姐妹，女儿孙女，岳父岳母，以下省略们，
凡来得快的东西去得也快，切记切忌！

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心烦，跑步去了。
i wonder if its a good habit or a bad habit tt im picking up...
im gg for late jogs...
like 9+ 10+ PM!
exercise b4 slp is good for e body rite?
lets hope so...

nites my dears~
june holis cfmed!
anybody wan anyting frm tw?

Silly ME!

2008-03-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

eh...
Amber又做傻事了！
yesh... Ms Amber left her wallet in sch AGAIN!

went to met Ellen after sch...
mind u...
after sch for me is like... 7+ ok...
tok to her... tts y i went to meet her...
n we had swensen's... w little Shawn.

when i was abt to go hm...
i realised tt my wallet is NOT W ME!
erm... den i called Ellen...
hehehe...

have been v bz...
very... n tired...
oh well~

我是个很健忘的人……
我会很容易忘记一个人长什么样子……

走好。

就是不知道怎的，
什么事都不想做，不想管，倒头大睡。
可是就睡不着。
就是想找个人来说话，不停地说，不停的笑。
可是见了面，却是我安慰对方。
这种事，好像从很久以前就开始循环了。
哎……烦！
我的潇洒到哪里去了！？
难道真的风萧萧，洒满一地嘛！？
我要是真有一天剃光了头，不要吓到哦！
我要是有一天，不闻不问飞了，不要大惊小怪哦！
因为我就是不能够被束缚的人……
绑住我，我会死的！

好不容易找到了Park Hee Jung画的图啊！
我喜欢的风格！

孤单的少年，你找到你要找的东西了吗？

tired..

2008-03-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

我有做傻事了……
今天……都快下雨了……
还走回家哦……
虽然不是第一次了……

本来以为会经过Shell油站的，
谁知道是Esso，然后……
就买不到Kinder Surprise咯。

我的Dears,我要Kinder Surprise!
买给我！

到最后……
还是坚持走回家。

到了家里slack了一下。
Msn上都打好了说要去跑步的。
可是坐着坐着，就没心情了。
还好，我的毅力没那么差。
（也许是那通电话刺激到我）

when i reached tt place...
it was alr drizziling...
nt tt i mind...
i stayed there for awhile...
the cold rain...
the cold wind...
it actually feels good for a person like me who hates the cold...
n den... i run hm...

home... is even colder den the outside...
LITERATELY!

i was so tired... i fell aslp on e sofa w 1 and holding my clothes ( intended yo go shower) while watching 《全民最大党》！
ya... den i heard my mum mumbling n woke up...

im tired..
spent 1 whole day in sch...
n din do any proper marking！
my life is NOT gg to become NL!
NEVER!

PS: Q啊，要好好考你的O啊！
会留则留，会走的总会走的。
看开点……
可能你也考得不错，会飞加拿大呢？
加油！

老婆，不要再跟岳父岳母冷战了哦……

我的孙女们啊！忙是忙，可是要好好照顾身体啊！
xinmei,不要再跌倒了哦！

UPDATES!

2008-03-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

yesh! im back n kicking!
oh me mama! i tell u ah...
i'm feeling so rusty tt just a simple blogspot is KILLING me!
try showing me more html codes n i may really ump out of the window!

okok~

nw pics!

Ellen wrote "pretty girls desu~"
i have to AGREE!

and i inserted "BEAUTIES ARMY"
Ellen agreed to that too~

ITS FOR MY BELATED 22ND BDAY!

that means "frens desu!"

n yap... for those who din noe...
i haf cut my hair to super short length...
i took lee teuk's foto n went to my stylist in JB...
mind u...
JB OK!
n he shook his head b4 he began... -.-''
but it turned out good rite!

n erm... it caused me more den once being mistaken by ppl that i am a 16 yr old... n sadly... tt my sch is a co-ed sch...
but... who cares!?

到非墨的部落逛了一下，
看到这张图，好羡慕啊……

什么时候，我们才可以这样呢？

还好我们家Ryn老婆已经出柜了！
好啦，你的KEN通过了第一轮的测试。
期待下一次哦！
今天见到了老婆，不一样哦！
也见到了WT和Cher,好想念去年在韩国的时候啊！
今年再去哦！
我的孙女们啊！要好好照顾自己哦！
阿妈我也想你们哪！

星期六

2008-03-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

我啊……真是捡到宝了……吧？

went to watch Evangelion w KK @ Cine...
heng ah... i'll still in tune w Eva...
the last time i watch the anime is like... dunno how many yrs ago?
it is a good show... action packed... no time for my mind to tink abt other tings at all...
or i assume...

well...
after tt incident...
i decided i shldnt jeopedise our 13yrs of friendship n just be like how we always did.
but... i did shorten the empty time btw us...
like meeting earlier... having supper n such...
none...
i went hm rite after the show... 9.30...
surprised?
yeah...
for a girl like me who will die w/o freedom...
who will definitely go hm after like... 2am? or even ltr...
9.30! even my mum was SHOCKED!
HOW RUDE...

难道……我会为了他修身养性吗？
切……什么修身养性啊！我的品行一向良好啊！
只不过好兄弟多了些嘛！

他的定力也真令人佩服……
星期六见了我一次……
几秒钟吧……
然后就不理我了。

好啦，我不是在闹脾气啦……
只是……他真的好成熟。
我看啊……除了年龄和某些方面经验……
我什么都比不过他吧……

春

2008-03-22T15:20:00.000+08:00

你知道吗……
小傻瓜，我也喜欢你……
你以为你做的小把戏我都没看在眼里吗？
你错了！
我虽然长得像16岁，可是我怎么也活了22年！

可是呢……

我们相遇的地方和时间都不对。

你必须完成你要完成的事，
而我必须离开这里。
这两件事，缺一不可哦！

所以，不论你多么的讨厌等待，
你还是要等。

要不，就放弃吧……

今年……春天来的真不是时候。

1st day of term 2...

2008-03-17T21:28:00.000+08:00

今天，我又做傻事了……
but... forget it...

this... is such an incomplete blogskin...
wt! ryn! cher! wj! help!

random...

anyway...

lets tok abt sumting tt seemed happier...
had band camp during e 1 week so-called holiday...
3 days 2 nites...
n 1 on my bday... 8th of march...
i am nt happy abt it at all...

8th morning was tough...
e boys din slp... i din slp... well...
so i took a nap on my table...
sec sch boys came after 12...
a really helpful bunch...
thank them frm e bottom of my heart...

this is Joshua n Keane~
cute boys...

sec sch boys... but erm... 7 missing... opps! thanks guys!

me! w one of e teams!

mass water bomb war w 1 of e tchers... n i got DRENCHED!
w 1 addition frm e 1 sec sch boy... thanks ah~

went hm on 9th n dropped dead when i was supposed to go for Lynn's wedding...

e happiest ting during e holi?
MEET UP W FRENS OF COZ!
pity i din get to see wt, melt, meh, etc etc...
muz meet up ok!
bobo!

22nd spring and autumn

2008-03-10T08:29:00.000+08:00

duh...

i dun feel 22...
i feel 16...
even ppl who doesnt noe my real age feel tt im 16...
a taxi uncle thot chs is nw a CO-ED SCHOOL!

blah...
there's sumting wrong w me...
sigh...

band camp was fun... n tired...
got me closer to e boys...
sec sch boys came to help...
muz get them sumting...
there's springsfield, bryan, like... and... erm...
shit... i dun even noe e names!!!

tsk tsk... amber lee ah...
你怎么可以这样！？

i miss my dears...
my dearies~ ktv? steamboat? hagen das?

18th, 19th & 20th

2007-12-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

18th

we woke up late on 18th...
coz no special prog mah...
hohoho...
wat slackers we r!
shopped at "Collapse"... aka "COEX"...
bought SM Town Winter Album 07, SJ Diary 07, Junior Mag, Big Bang Album n OMG! TWO MICKEY MOUSE MP3 PLAYER!
i got e new color series!
RED N BLUE!
e blue is oh so cute n nice...
not like e previous solid blue...
its sweet!
OMG! SWEET COMING OUT FRM MY MOUTH IS OH SO NOT RITE!

anyway...
18th ended w makaning "dinper" aka dinner + supper at e 路边摊 near our hostel.
its NICE!

19th
OMGOMGOMG!
there's always super nice ppl in KOREA!
i repeat myself...
MOST KOREANS R SUPER NICE PPL!
except students n fans... n sumtimes taxi drivers...
today we went to Gangnam to search for SJ Calendars...
me n cher only...
as usual... we got LOST!
i tell u...
9 out of 10 times!!! we r always walking in e WRONG directions!
den 1 vvvv nice young man who is older den me...
took e bus w us, got down b4 his destination n brought us to e bookstore!
den he rushed to his bus...
see!
how nice can these ppl be!?
den we got SJ DESK & WALL CALENDARS!
woot!
n i bought alot of other stuffs...
omgomgomg...
den we ate at Mr. Pizza, endorsed by Moon Geun Young...
e slogan is "Made for Women"...
n i tell u...
those pizzas ARE MADE FOR WOMEN!
e TWO of us ate 1 WHOLE PIZZA!
its those regular ones we eat at Pizza Hut ok!
damn delicious!
den we bought e bear cap w gloves attached...
worn by teuk n my son in KTR...
hohoho~

n yesh...
went to KTR n saw SNSD...
gosh...
their fans... all corny/horny guys... scary...
like mountains infront of u...
we can only see them at e 2nd part of e show...
it was tiring...
n same... we took a taxi home...
nw this is e part when taxi uncles r some of those UN-NICE ppl in KR...
they "TOK" our $$ ok!...
n this bloody uncle smoke in e car loh!
kns...
sure dio lung cancer...

20th
shopped at MYEONGDONG...
its a really nice shopping place ya know...
anyway...
me n cher were kinda down...
coz...
e prezzies r still in our hands...
but den...
at e end of tonite's KTR...
GUESS WHO WE SAW N WHAT THEY DID!?

i saw MY DAUGHTER-IN-LAW!
noti... noti...
hohoho!
aiya...
he is juz so damn cute lah...
n ok... son... hush hush...
i know mummy is being bias...
but i seldom see DIL mah...
okok... mama loves u... and DONGHAE ok...
omo...
den hoh... DIL is so happily shooting love bullets n waving at us...
n erm...
u guys know he always do tings tt r out of e blue... ON MY SON!
yesh...
he SUDDENLY pulled my son's big collar!!!
n wat my son did?
luff loh... wat else will he do?
bth this 2 sia...
nw u see y EUNHAE is like a plague in KR?
BL is EVERYWHERE!!!!
hohoho~
n den...
OMG!
they went to e carpack n came out in their white car...
den drove off...
n SHINDONG winded down e window n WAVED!!!
silly boys!
tsk tsk...
den i was like...
ok lah ok lah!
e stuffs i take home n play ok!
i am CONTENTED!
WEEH!

ok... happy day!
wat abt u ppls in sg!?

n ohya...
RYN laopo! i got u a bag!

melly, np! hohoho~
but i dun tink i can get e BB diary n calendars set...
we went to YGeShop...
but hoh... nobody there leh...
n its more like an office den a "shop"...
sorry...

guys!
i miss u~
bobo!

16th and 17th...

2007-12-18T08:15:00.000+08:00

16th...

omg...
guess what?
we went into inki!!!
FAINT...
n we saw... guess who!?
SJ!(PS:only elves allowed to Q for them coz e Fxxking line is juz too damn long)
BIGBANG!(den we Qed for them... we were e 105th, 106th m 107th... so suay!)
SNSD!
ERU!(really muz thank ERU! i shouted for him ok! n we got in!!!)
FT ISLAND!
WHEESUNG!
GLASSBOX! (e duet t sang e Paris Lovers song...)
DYNAMIC DUO!

e whole like... 1hr was HIGH 最高点！
排了那么久的时间，走了那么多的冤枉路，一路上一定是踩到狗屎了！
要不是走狗屎运，我们真的是不会看到他们的。
原来现场时有那么多的强特和赫海的！
还有就是在饭太多的时候，SJ的饭和FT的饭先进去录，之后BB和其他人的饭才会进去。
但是在那一个小时里，轮到SJ的时候，SJ还是会出来表演的，而且更养眼哦！
希澈真人真的好美哦！

韩饭是很猖狂，很恐怖的！
那天SNSD的男饭就把SBS的门给弄坏了！

要知道详情，请到WT或CHER的BLOG一览。

17th

今天去了明洞，然后又走了好多的冤枉路，去到了KBS，看到了KTR!
又看到了我儿子和特！
一路上还好有贵人相助，才走到了目的地……
各位乡亲父老……以后千万不能相信我，让我指路……
一直就错！
不过我还真是了不起哦！
我的韩文竟然可以让我们在韩国起死回生哦！
我们问路问到了一位很好的UNCLE身上，他还不停的打电话帮我们问哦！
那时我们超靠近MBC的说……
多担心他是MBC的人啊！
之后还找来了纸板来给我们画地图。
善良啊！

17TH一直都过得很好……
除了2个破坏国家形象，而且不能算是饭的婊子！
妈的，这两个婊子以后一定会肥得遮住KTR的玻璃窗，不能出门！
高卡路里，高胆固醇，肥死！TMD!

拜三我要是再见到这2只，哼！
再来我就报警啦！

还有，儿子好可爱！
特也是！

其实不愉快地只发生在最后的10分钟……
其余的都很快乐哦！

感言：
其实在韩国要看到明星是满容易的……
而且饭是很现实的……
我们还看到简美妍哦！
韩国的人都蛮好的，乐于助人，可是饭和学生除外！

祝各位安好哦！
今天也要开心！

1ST & a HALF DAY in SEOUL!!!

2007-12-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO!
MY DEARS!!!
I AM IN KOREA!!!

hohoho...
Seoul is... FXXXing COLD!!!
sorry...

e airport drivers ( for us, they drove bus 602) werent very frenly...
n... they din/ were unwilling/ didnt know how to speak english to us...
e funny ting is...
other den e airport...
e ppl in e rest of e places we went to were quite frenly!

n guess wat!?
1st time in my life... 21 years!!!
i saw SNOW! omg... SNOW! WINTER! XMAS!!!
hohoho! wat a good combi!
n 1 ting gd abt KR is...
TOILETS ARE EVERYWHERE!

we reached 9pm ( SG8pm),
and our hotel at 11pm.
it was a long n... tiring walk... frm Hapjeong Stnt to Kim's...
But Kim's so gd, she walked to e place where we got lost to pick us up!
she showed us ard...
we unpacked...
n we went out again...
den... it SNOWED!!!
woooah...
warm bread n cold snow...
it was BEAUTIFUL!!!
den we went to 7-11, grab n go.
slpt at 2am... w coldness surrounding us...

but i woke up in sweat!
hohoho...
shows tt e heater is working... s...l...o...w...l...y...

went Enwha Girls Uni. juz nw...
SHOPPED!
JONES!! i got e bunny earmuffs for u!!!
n erm... alot of other tings...

surprisingly...
w my so-so korean...
I SURVIVED E SHOPPING!!!
even finding route n food is nt a prob ok!!
*PROUD*

i cant ul fotos...
no card reader...
so... wait for me to come back k~

muacks!
miss u dears sooo much!

2

2007-09-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

我不行了。
真的不行了。

为什么我拿到的都是别人不要的？
5是酱，4是酱，
连CCA也好不到哪里去。

有位同事看到信上写着这学校的名，马上泪声巨下。
我？
我只是个刚过完成人礼的丫头啊！
你要我怎么办？

开始教书后的一个领悟是：
要生就要好好教，
不想教就不要生。
千万不要生个到世上来危害人间的。

在这里，我好无助，毫无能。
该怎么办才好啊？
什么都不对，什么才对？
什么都做不好，怎么才做得好？
我要离开这里。我要离开他们。

我不要跟上去。
要是跟了上去，不是他们死就是我亡，
要不就两败俱伤。
我不适合这里，这里也不适合我。
让我离开这里。

2年……离现在还有1年09个月。好远啊。

最近楼下好多丧事，什么时候轮到我？
忘了是什么时候的事……
我竟然想在5A的课室里上吊，做个孤魂野鬼，
警戒在那里上课的小孩乖乖上课，
要是给老师惹麻烦，就给你好看！

自从进了这里之后，
身子就不好使了，
随之而来的，是脑子不好使。

大家都懂得怎么教这班，
怎么让一个不懂得丫头来教?
那不毁了他们么？

烦死了，
要真烦死了倒好。
烦死我算了。
要不累死在办公室也好。
来个5-6天没人发现，
然后上报……讨老师们一个公道！

001

2007-07-25T22:31:00.000+08:00

yeah...
by VIOLENT demand...
I AM BACK!
hohoho~

days r...
well...
alot better~
for those who know how tough "school life" had been for me in CHS...
boys... Boys... BOYS!
i'll nv understand wat they tink!

erm... ok... 1st post...
happy...
kinda peaceful...
love my dear laopo...
wt n xmei~
n wj~ who i met juz nw at her working place...
toked...
hehehe~
were eye-contacting n luffing most of e time...
n oso interrupted by a super mafan uncle...
he muz be lonely...
hush wj...
n we toked abt u-noe-who...
hehehe~
*hugs wj~

went to meet xmei after 5pm...
din wait long this time rite?
had pastamania n went destressing...
n OMGACKT!
guess wat SCARYBER bought!?
i bought this RED OCTOPUS tt u peeps can see at TAKO PACHI stores!!!
n dear xmei kept "brushing" e teeth for him...
she decided to name him "OCTY".
fine... he is nw named "OCTY RED"
brush teeth?
den bought 1 so OMGACKT i tink its a GL comic book...
bought it coz e costume on cover was sooo nice...
i felt like cos-ing it...
OMG! if Jones sees this...
she'll kill me!

went hm...
toked to ryn~
laopo... if tt dog follow u again...
i'll castrate it...
n yeah~
my dears~
we shall meet on sat~
ryn laopo, fang dear, xmei dear...
who else wanna come?
activities as such:
makan + tok kok sing song~

laopo n fang dear fighting for ur BIG TEST on fri ok~

okie... tts abt it...
shall blog abt wat horrible stuffs SCARYBER did in CHS... soon...
bobo peeps!

w huggs n bonbons~

you.can.lock.yourself.up.but.please unframe me

累泪

...

我的小龙女呢？

缺陷……

淡淡的生日最开心！

祝我生日快乐~

快乐变质

busily happy and... not

health problem...

7th day_

4th Day_

1st, 2nd and 3rd Day in Korea_

Holi Announcement!!!

这辈子都离不开他了……

the smell of holiday is in the air!

holiday? HOLIDAY!

心境

爱不疚

tired...

threads of thots~

trapped

Aug Updates~

likes and... mostly dislikes...

stress? stress!

Junjou Romantica...

SG World of Guiniess... or watever its called...

我犯贱！

again...

empty inside...

working hard... or die trying...

简单的一天

missing tvps

我是女王！

what i have...

台湾2

游台湾

gg to tw

pissed

tag replies 25/5/08

holi mood~

放荡不羁

17th may

CHS Music Takes Flight UPDATE*

few days before...

AH DEAR... SHIT!

嘴贱两姐妹

简单

谈 安全感

yesterday n today

ambrose's bad day...

friday & sat

labour day

KTV!

long chat with En Feng...

recovering~

thoughts of giving up...

Mayday Down To Earth World Tour 2008

PO

finally... an update~

Music Takes Flight Concert May 17th 08

HURRAYS TO ELLEN!

ONITSUKA TIGER! I'M TIGER!

random

CLEM IS BACK!

happenings

sorry

wrong

tag replies

on WT

sweet~

谷底

POST SYF

SYF

To Li Min...

谷底……

complete-incomplete

non-alcoholic hangover

PTM

demoralised

谈　安全感